Maybe It was You

Dinner rehersals

March 2, 2016
||ricky||

_I was currently in my hotel room Alexa had booked for me Nico, the twins, Kevin and Joesar. We were all just chilling around talking , well more they were talking. I was just standing on the hotel balcony, Alexa had kicked us out the condo this morning saying it was time for me to leave Ari. So we packed up all are shit and came to the suite she booked.

My mind was running 100 mph, I had every possible thing that will happen tomorrow running through my head. I was stressed as fuck for these vows, I was nervous she won't show up, and on top that.. I gotta try and sleep tonight and go through tomorrow waiting for the wedding without her.

  Leaning against the railing I just looked out at the beautiful place we were in, the place where I was gonna marry the actual woman of my dreams tomorrow. From the moment I first actually face to face laid eyes on her at my auditions to now, it all feels like a dream. Like any moment I will wake up, and be so far from where I am now; how I'm feeling. She will be in love with some other guy, and I'll just be her back up dancer. She won't be in love with me, she won't ever kiss me again, hold my hand, hold me in my sleep, or tells me she loves me.

  What if this is a dream, and all those things happen.. what am I suppose to do. Every possible thing I can think of is giving me a negative vibe, and I'm completely conflicted on these vows.. Only this I have is. I love you..
That's not enough, but how do you tell someone you'd do anything for, someone that means everything to you. You love them in a small enough words the guest won't fall asleep.

Feeling a hand touch my shoulder I jump slightly turning to see Bri and Nico. "cmon it's time to start getting dressed.. we got to head out soon." they say together.  Standing up I face them, and part of me knew they knew I was scared. Not because I was getting married, but because I was getting married to her. ARIANA FUCKING GRANDE.

Walking back into the suite I walk to my room where my bags and my suit was , I pull out my diode-rent, cologne, shoes socks etc.

Taking my shirt off I reapply my smells since I was literally dying of sweat, from my nerves. Than taking my pants I pull them down as well grabbing my dress pants putting them on.   Than my shirt buttoning it up and tucking it in while putting on my slim tie. Once everything was one I grab my jacket slipping it on for the finishing touch.

Grabbing my phone I open it up clicking to Ariana's number.

Me: baby.

My🌙✨: yes Rick?

me: I love you.

my🌙✨: I love you too baby. r you ok?

me: I'm nervous. I miss you.

my🌙✨: baby you will see me in 30 mins.

me: ok.. I'll see you in a few.

Sighing loudly, not feeling any better honestly I slip my phone in my pocket as I walk out the room to see the guys all dressed up and looking at me. Their was no words spoken to me, regarding the wedding.

I believe they were honestly trying to keep me from thinking about it as much as possible..

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I was walking around telling people hi, and welcoming them thanking them for being here and so on. We were obviously here before the girls, which sucked cause I just wanted to see Ari, to make sure everything's good I don't know honestly. I'm just fucking up right now, my minds playing tricks on me.

It was mostly just family an close friends with us tonight, before the wedding, it was a good bit. But it also wasn't too much.. I was leaning up against the wall of the entry waiting for Ari to show up, everyone else was sitting down and talking. When i felt that soft small hand brush over my back it was like a wave of relief hitting me.