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Kisumi Shigino - Songfic (I Dont Love You. MCR)

A/N quick vent oneshot to help my sadness. So whoops...
(Play the song while you listen.)
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Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

I sped down the streets of Iwatobi. Rain soaked my sweatshirt and I was cold to the bone, my hands shoved into the depths of my pockets as I cried.

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still a good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

I turned down an alley, kicking a trash can in anger. My tears of frustration mixing with the rain that collected on my face.

"Damn you Kisumi..." I growled.

When you go
Would you even turn to say
I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday

The memory flashed like a sudden train. Quick, thunderous, and all around heart stopping.

But now, not only did it stop my heart it shattered. Into bits and pieces I could never string together even if I tried.

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
Is where you oughta stay

I'd delt with the pain, the agony of watching him slip away. Watching as he slowly realized he never loved me the way I did.

He slowly left me alone more and more. Going to see his friends, flirting with more girls.

Even having the audacity of sleeping with a woman in our bed.

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whoa

I stayed... As much as it hurt to be cheated, lied to. I stayed; because I loved him...

When you go
Would you even turn to say
I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday

I had come home from work meeting a frazzled Kisumi in the doorway.

Well come on, come on

"Kisumi? What's going on?" I asked seeing as a backpack was slung over his shoulder. A box in hand.

"(M/N) listen I-... I never meant for it to go this far." He explained. I felt the lump grow in my throat. I knew this day was coming.

"You-... You never loved me... Did you?" I asked. My heart twisting in a way no heart should. He looked at me with those damned  violet orbs I fell for, the ones that hadn't looked me in the eye for weeks, averted to the floor like they had millions of times before.

When you go
Would you have the guts to say

"I don't love you,
Like I loved you
Yesterday..."

He said, achingly slow. Or was it that I knew they were coming, and made them seem so much slower. To punish myself, for not trying. Not keeping him around.

I bit my lip and nodded. Trying to focus my mind on the pain in my lip instead of the shattered remains of my heart.

"I understand..." I said steadier than I thought I could manage. He just walked past. Barely brushing my shoulder. I listened as his footsteps died out, leaving, like he had just up and left what we had. Not that there was much left anymore.

"I don't love you..
Like I loved you,
Yesterday."

The phrase echoed in my head as I wandered the alley. I had left the house to clear my head. Only for it to be fogged with more questions like my eyes had with tears.

I looked up. The inky gray-black sky crying like I was. Sharing the pain. The pain of a broken heart. And the death of a once beautiful love.

I don't love you...
Like I loved you,
Yesterday.

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End.

I'm sorry... There's no happy ending... I'm dealing with a lot of emotional crap right now. So I needed a vent.

-Dan