Rejecting Hope (Old Copy)

Chapter Seven - "The Anguish No One Will Ever Know." - Part One - <3

(Hope)

      Awoken by the stray rays of sunlight streaming in from my bedroom window, I place my hands in front of my eyes, and soon enough they adjust to the brightness. I'd forgotten to close the drapes last night. Blinking a few times, I sit up, avert my eyes to the floor beneath me, and I giggle to myself quietly. Rubbing my eyes, I shake off the feeling of sleep. Stretching and yawning, I finally get up and walk over to the window's sill. However, I stop myself.

                       "Aria."

      I whisper and for some reason, I can just feel my heart shaking at the mere image before me. Ariana, she seems so serene, and she looks so peaceful in her slumber. She's always been a sleeping beauty, so much so that not even the sun can wake her up... not even, if it had wanted too. Closing my eyes, my forehead falls down against the glass, and a flashback then occupies everything within my mind as everything starts fading out to black.

    "Ariana... didn't you always used to say? That sometimes in life, our only way to escape reality was through that of our very own dreams?" It was then that the significant memory takes over my mind.

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              "Ariana."

       "Hm?" She smiles gently at me as we both sat beneath that same old Sycamore tree. Looking at her, my mouth grew dry as I tried to find the nerve in me to pry it back open. I found myself stuck once again. Wanting to say those words that I had always wanted to say to her, but had never found the courage to say. Even now, I'm still too nervous to just spit it out already. So instead, I look away from her. But she reaches out to me and touches my arm and it was in that moment that I had realized what she was wearing. Looking down at her hand, I saw that ever so familiar aquamarine green sweater and that, that was all it took. The fact that she was wearing it, was all that it had took to have given me the courage to speak.

          "Ariana... will you go out with me?" I stare boldly into her deep blue set of fifteen year old eyes. However it was a moment too soon, for she is suddenly frozen by my words. Like a deer caught in the headlights, I could just see her heartbeat racing and then suddenly, suddenly she got up and ran and I didn't even have a second to blink, let alone think! Jumping up onto my own two feet, I chase after her carelessly. "Ariana!" I called out her name with feelings of rejection instantly overwhelming me and that was when, a car had came out way too suddenly. It swung fast around the corner and was now speeding straight... towards my Ariana.

                            "ARIANA!!!"

           Screaming now, each and every letter had came ripping it's way out of my chest! Agonizingly, it tore it's way up through my throat and I willed my legs to run but faster and faster. The adrenaline had finally started to kick in and I felt as if I was going as fast as humanely possible. But I knew that no matter how fast I ran or how hard I pumped, I just couldn't move fast enough and at this point my mind is just screaming inside of me. Screaming things like, "Why doesn't she move!" and "Why is she just standing there like that!"

                         "ARIANA!!"

         I scream out once more, the car inches but closer and closer towards that of her body and I was just waiting. Waiting for that exact moment of impact, that moment of horror in which all of me would break into two as my world would fall apart at the very seams as my best friend would just be crushed into the harsh and unforgiving pavement. But the minute that car had even came but a good two feet from us, I hit her and we both fall to the ground as the car goes flying by, hitting it's horn.