Rejecting Hope (Old Copy)

Chapter Seventeen - "The Wreckage."

(Ariana)

Speeding into the horizon, my tears blurred my vision. I kept telling myself over and over again that his words had not hurt me. I kept reminding myself that I was fine. However, as always my mind comes crashing in. It shipwrecks upon a suicidal crazed island and like a tidal wave pulling me under, I began to choke as I'm suddenly and constantly reminded that a person is in fact not fine, if they have to keep reminding themselves that they "are" fine. It was then that his words had came back down upon me and it was just one pull after another under these relentless tidal waves that my mind had kept bringing.

"You are nothing but a little bitch!"

Nothing but a little....

bitch...

Bitch, bitch, Bitch, BITCH!!!!!!

"Ah!" I screamed into my steering wheel as the tears come falling down even harder, literally bluring my vision to the point of complete blindness. At this point, the warning signs in my mind are blaring. For it is impossible for me to see, these dark roads ahead of me. I've lost him... I lost him as well! He was the last one, the last and only person that I had left to live for. Without him, what was the point of this life? Suddenly, my mind goes dark and I start dreaming of sirens as I'm wishing for broken glass to be displayed across this high way. Rolling down my windows I feel the cold sensation of the rain as it pelts down upon my skin, if I have nothing left to live for in this life, then I will not let him win... I won't let him kill me! He may have taken my mother, but he will not... take me.

Immediately and without thinking, I begin to speed. My hair whipping around me like a tornado in the angry winds and my entire being becomes soaked from the crying skies that flies in through my windows. If he never wanted to see me ever again, then so be it. He will gain this wish, I swerve the car... but before my car can crash into the forest before me. A bright light comes hurtling towards the passenger side of my car and in a moment too soon. Everything goes pitch black as my life flashes before my very eyes.

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Flashes of laughter, smiles, and dark dark hair.... and the last thing I see, are the brightest sea green eyes that I've ever seen. He was the only good thing in my life... The bright light returns to me, blinding me, I rise to it and I've never felt so happy in my entire life. All of my scars are suddenly disappearing, shedding off my soul like scabs upon wounded skin. When out of no where, someone suddenly snatches me from behind.

"No, Arie! You can't go! Please! You can't leave me alone here..."

"But you no longer want me. Trust me, I understand. Now let me go, so that I can go see mom." His hold tightens upon me, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Ariana!"

"Sorry won't cut it this time!" My soul screams, and it yearns for him. But I find the strength to wrench myself off from his hands that hold me. Flying outwards and towards the blinding lights above me. I reach the lights within seconds and the moment I touch them, it feels and looks as if lightning had struck me. Everything glows and vibrates into this white abyss around me. But after a few seconds the whiteness soon subsides into a new scene. Looking down, the very first thing that I see is that I am wearing a little white sun dress. Blinking my eyes, I soon realize that I am under a big old Sycamore tree, the same exact tree that used to be our secret hiding spot. I scoff at the image before me, is this a joke? Walking up to the tree, I place a hand upon it's bark as I let my hand run gently down it's rough, dark brown wood.