Rejecting Hope (Old Copy)

Chapter Forty - Tell Me All of Your Secrets

        (Hope)

                I awake to the warmth of a body within mine. I don't know why but it gives me a feeling, a strange sensation of happiness. I'm groggy at first but then my mind starts to take everything in as I look down and see her angelic face and suddenly I remember all of which that had happened last night. How she had spilled her heart out to me as she explained our entire story that has always seemed but a mystery to me. I can't help but smile as I reminisce in the memory of last night. It's been forever since we've talked that long. Since we've talked until one has fallen asleep before the other. I remember coming back into her room at three in the morning and curling up in bed with her sleeping body. I didn't want to go to sleep, I just wanted the moment to last forever... To just stare at her until the morning light... But my body wouldn't allow it and surely enough all good things have to come to an end.

        But I still want to make it last, suddenly I remember why she had spilled her heart out to me... Now it was my turn, I need to tell her my secret. I feel completely and utterly horrible for not telling her to begin with, but at the same time I was doing what I thought was best for her. But little did I know that keeping it a secret from her would only make things worse...

      I need to get the courage up to tell her and I need to do it at the right moment and time. She's so fragile that sometimes I forget just how truly strong she is. Suddenly she shifts ever so slightly in my arms as she begins to stir awake from her sleep. Her eyes flutter open and she smiles when she see's me.

       "Mm, good morning!" She yawns ever so adorably.

                I can't help but hear my heart beat faster, she has me whipped my friends would say if only they could hear my mind.

              "Good Morning..." I whisper as I weave my fingers through her hair. She stretches as she rubs her eyes. "What time is it dream cloud?" She whispers and my eyebrows raise in surprise.
  

              "Stealing my nicknames now? You know I take a lot of time and dedication to come up with those right?" I give her a crooked grin and she just returns it.

        "So what if you made it up, the meaning to me is still true no matter who it's sent too." She whispers, suddenly my heartbeats faster. How on Earth could she think in any shape or form that I am better than her? I don't even deserve someone as amazing as her...

       I'm about to say something when suddenly she reads the clock, "11:37?! How late did we stay up last night?!" We're really late for school!" I can't help but laugh as I sit up.
 

     "Doesn't matter because we're skipping today little Missy!"

                 Suddenly she sits up next to me and messes with my hair, I grin and take her hand within mine as I hold it dearly. "What's going on in that little mind of yours?" She whispers as she tilts her head ever so slightly.

               "First off my mind is not little and second off-" But she cuts me off before I can finish.

                      "You sure about that?!" Her ever blue Sapphire eyes sparkle and her happiness flows within me as a smile melts onto my face. Something's different about her... I've never seen her this happy before... this beautiful as she is now. I wonder if she feels like the world is no longer baring upon her shoulders now that she has told me everything and I wonder if I will feel the same once I tell her about my hardship.

           "Shh, come on my dear... I deserve more credit than that!" I smile and move on.

                      "I love you and I need to make things up to you... So um, today I'm going to tell you my secret no matter how hard it's going to be. But first I want to have a good day with you, I don't want this feeling of bliss today to go away so quickly."