Rejecting Hope (Old Copy)

Chapter Twenty - "I Bite My Tongue so you Don't Hear Me."

Authors Note - A wall is broken down in Ariana in this chapter :). She stops pretending and actually starts feeling for once :).

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(Ariana)

It hurts, it hurts... it hurts.

That was all that could run through my mind with every beat of my heart.

"Ah!" I cry through clenched teeth, stomping my foot I could taste the crimsion liquid, the iron blood. I had bitten my tounge too hard. Surprisingly enough, that was a factor that hurt less than anything else I was experiencing right now. Immediately they pull away from each other as I turn away from the scene.

I couldn't even look at him. My heart was breaking in two... and I couldn't help but wonder as this little voice comes to me, what makes this time so different from the last? I closed my eyes, hurt as the tears finally fell.

It's because I've finally fell completely in love with him.

"Um... sorry," Catherine whispers as she stands up dusting off the front of her skirt, she eyes us both suspiciously. Before turning back to me, her eyes see mine hurt and I try to look away quickly to hide my face. But it's too late, the sympathy was already woven across her words.

"I think I'll go." It takes her only a moment to run past me, and then Hope and I are left here... alone.

"Ariana." He begins, but no... no longer was I upset.

Now I was pissed.

Had he no sympathy? No regret? Suddenly I hear footsteps behind me,

"Look at me and respond when I'm talking to y-!" Spinning me around by my shoulder he stops talking, taking a look upon my face for the first time. The once yelling Hope is now whispering.

"...you."

I hated this! I hated this, pushing him away he moves slightly.

"I hate you!"

Screaming at the top of my lungs his eyes widen as I run out the door and toward the parking lot.

"Ariana, stop right there!"

But instead of listening to him, I run even further, passing my car as I run out of the parking lot and into the neighborhood from across the school.

"ARIANA!" He shouts and his voice quivers, I wonder why.

His footsteps are gaining, faster and faster matching the rapid beating of my heart.

In a moment too soon, I gasp when I'm enveloped in his arms.

"No!" I scream knocking him away from me and he shuffles back, then stands his ground as I breath heavily.

Looking down the road I'm tempted to run, but I shake my head instead. I'm sick of running, I'm facing this fear for once! So I turn around on my heel and start to head straight for him.

"Aria... what are you doing?" He whispers slightly terrified, but mostly exhausted. I shake my head angrily, the blood seeping from my lips and down my chin from the bite that I had made earlier upon my tounge.