goner. ;; a joshler fanfic

seven

GUESS WHO FOUND THEIR OLD LAVA LAMP ((its the gay nerd writing this fic))

frank startled me as he plopped down next to me on the couch.

"did something happen with josh?"

"no..i just-"

"then what happened?"

"well,, after i left last night i figured it was a nice night for a walk" i breathed steadily

"and you didnt invite me?" he said smiling, jokingly trying to lift the mood

"hah, so i was walking and didnt really know where i was headed and before i knew it i was sitting on a ledge of the bridge on acadia road" i said all in one fast breath

"tylerrr" he tilted his head slightly

"josh was texting me if i was okay and he came to get me once it started pouring out. i didnt tell him what i was doing on the bridge and to be honest im not even 100% sure."

"were you gonna-"

"in February i wrote a suicide note." why did i say that?

"why didnt you tell me? i thought you trusted me"

"i do! i just- i dont know. ive been wanting to tell you and somehow josh got it out of me on,, i think it was friday"

"tyler please dont kill yourself. your my best friend and i dont know what id do if you killed yourself. your one of very few things keeping me alive. i need you" he sounded like his heart just broke

"i just cant help but think if i wasnt such an idiot id be dead right now" hot tears started rushing down my face

"your not an idiot. just remember im always here for you. i dont care if its 3am or 3pm ill always be there." he half smiled at me

"thanks,, ill always be there for you too. dont forget that i mean it" i said wiping away my tears

"how about this. you stay alive for me. ill stay alive for you"

"deal." i nodded

if we hadnt made the promise i probably would have killed myself once i left.

"i love you man, no homo" he said with a smirk

"hah,, i love you too fren"

"so you wanna watch nightmare before christmas?"

"but we watched that last nightt" i whined

at that moment the doorbell rang. frank and i looked at each other confused

"did you invite someone over? am i interrupting im so sorr-" i started to get up

"nah i had no plans for today." he said as he got up to answer the door.

he opened the door just enough for his head to pop out. this was something he had always done

"yo." frank said opening the door slightly

"hey can i talk to you for a second" i recognized the voice. was it josh? what was he doing here i told him i was going home.

"hmm i dont know man you not gonna kill me are you?" i could basically hear the grin on franks face. he generally gave people a hard time if he wasnt very familiar with them. it was his way to see how patient they were i think. or its his way of playing it off cool when hes freaking out inside.

"nah tyler would be pissed hed break up with me instantly" it was josh

"yea about that" frank leaned against the door frame still not opening it far enough that josh could see inside

"im not very familiar with you but tyler speaks pretty fondly of you but i still want to make sure your not a rapist or a fuckboy. i dont want you hurting tyler."

frank sounded pretty intimidating. i knew josh wanted to make a good impression on him. because if frank didnt like josh than i wouldnt date him. i trust frank with my life and hes usually pretty good at getting vibes from people. so basically he has saved me from a few fuck boys who seemed really sweet at first

silence

"okay im messing with you- maybe not that last part, if you hurt tyler i will personally murder everyone you love in front of you" he stepped outside but left the door open a crack so i could still hear

"well first off i wont hurt tyler, i love him. second im worried about him." josh sounded hurt

"why is that" frank has always been very protective of me with everyone ive had a crush on. and even though he knew id been friends with josh for a long time, josh was still someone i had a crush on

"i dont know i caught him cutting yesterday and"

"fuck" frank said under his breath

"hes been acting weird lately. this morning he tried to convince me he was okay but it was pretty obvious hes not"

fuck he caught onto that

"well dont worry. tylers not gonna kill himself he has me as a best friend and you seem like a decent guy. but if he doesnt want to talk about something dont push it" frank said softly

"uh okay" josh sounded unsure

"come by whenever im rarely busy." he said starting to step inside "feel free to bring gerard over and tell him im sorry and want to take things slow"

"i already did. tyler mentioned it earlier and gerard wanted me to give you his number." josh handed frank a slip of paper

"aye thanks man" frank looked back at me with a big smile. the door was fully open now and josh could see me

"welp thanks for stopping by tyler and i and gonna watch nightmare before christmas for the fifth time this week byee" frank started to close the door.

"wait" i said and frank swug the door back open again, i got up and went over to josh

"frank is cheeky and very protective of me and you can trust him with your friend." i looked josh in the eye "and he didnt mean to offened you if he did im so- we're sorry" i looked over at frank who had a big ass smile looking down at the piece of paper with gerards number.

"well ill let you guys get to your movie" josh said with a smile, i gave him a quick hug and off he went. he seemed content with the quick visit.

GOTTA LOVE PROTECTIVE FRANK

ok i really liked this chapter and i really like the idea of frank being a smol protective fren i dont know if ill update this week ill try to but yea thats it for now bye ily.