goner. ;; a joshler fanfic

twenty seven

after the party frank and i went back to his place and brendon was texting me about what we were talking about. hes gonna break up with josh cause hes still in love with ryan and he thought dating josh would help him get over it. turns out it only made things worse. frank ended up falling asleep around 3 but i didnt even attempt to sleep until around 5

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i woke up before frank ironically. so i went on my phone i subconsciously opened up to ryans contact to text him and felt sick once i realized what i was doing. i just settled with texting josh, we were still friends right?

'hey'

he took a little while to respond

'yo'

'whats up'

'nm just woke up and bren is making breakfast while i clean up the party wbu'

'waiting for frank to wake up, how are things with brendon'

'really good actually i really like him i gotta go clean up mel is here too but still bye'

'bye'

i turned off my phone and looked over at frank. he was so deep in sleep he almost looked dead.

then of course my phone went off from brendon texting me and it seemed to wake up frank. he grunted and rolled over

'ahhhhh im gonna do it im gonna do it'

'do what' as soon as i sent it i realized what an idiot i was, he was obviously talking about breaking up with josh

'break up with josh'

'welp goodluck'

i set my phone down and frank rolled back over to face me

"next time put your damn phone on silent" he said with a smirk throwing a pillow at me as he sat up

"goodmorning"

"no"

my phone went off from another text from brendon

"fuck" frank said getting up and taking my phone with him

"frank what are yo-" he ran out of the room so i chased after him

"why is brendon texting you at this ungodly hour" he whinned holding the phone up in the air in an attempt to keep it away from me

i simply grabbed it from him and smiled

"goddamnit im too short for life"

"you said it i didnt" i shook my head at him as i texted a response to brendon

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brendon eventually broke up with josh and gerard ended up coming over with his little brother mikey and i left after a bit cause my mom wanted me home for some stupid reason since she was gone when i got there

i sat at my piano playing a melody i had written not that long ago

after i finished i flipped through a notebook i had trying to find lyrics that would fit the melody

i frantically searched for the particular song i knew would pair perfectly with the melody and eventully i found it and started playing

I'm a goner

Somebody catch my breath

I'm a goner

Somebody catch my breath

I wanna be known by you

I wanna be known by you

as i played and sung with a soft voice i could hear blurryface emerging from all the dark thoughts in my mind

all the things he was saying were really starting to get to me.

Though I'm weak

Beaten down

I'll slip away

Into the sound

i thought about ryan

The ghost of you

Is close to me I'm inside out

You're underneath

i thought about frank

I've got two faces

Blurry's the one I'm not

I've got two faces

Blurry's the one I'm not

i thought about josh

I need your help to

Take him out

I need your help to

Take him out

i thought about brendon

dont let me be gone.

dont let me be gone.

dont let me be gone.

dont let me be gone.

i thought about everyone that had been in my life for the past 6 months or so

I'm a goner

Somebody catch my breath

I'm a goner

Somebody catch my breath

I wanna be known by you

I wanna be known by you