goner. ;; a joshler fanfic

twenty five

oh shit there's like 5 chapters left

ALSO IM BACK FROM THE DEAD AND FUCK HEATHENS IS SOO GOOD!!!1!!11!

it was offically summer vacation. yesterday was the last day of school.

i dont have any plans, im probably just gonna hang out with frank and gerard but thats it. today i decided i would go visit ryan.

i had a shower and put on my nicest pair of black jeans and a button up t-shirt and threw a black sweater on top.

i shoved my phone in my pocket and started walking to the cemetery. after about five minutes of walking i realized i forgot my earbuds so i just walked in silence.

it was warm out but kinna on the cold side considering it was summer, i looked down at my old black converse then i heard my name being called.

"hey tyler!"

i looked behind me to see who it was. i wasnt in the mood for conversation

"oh hey brendon" i spoke quietly as he ran up beside me

"where you off to?"

"uh not important- what about you?"

"oh im going over to joshes, im helping him set up and get stuff for the end of the year party"

i looked at him confused. "what party?"

"y'know, josh is throwing a party with all his friends and shit. did he not tell you"

"no but i wouldnt want to go anyway. i dont like social gatherings nevermind parties its just-"

"i get it." 

the cemetery was a block away and i was praying he would leave before he found out where i was going.

"so you and josh broke up?"

"yea"

"sorry to hear that" he didnt look very sorry to hear it at all.

"yea well-" i glanced over at the cemetery gate which was a couple meters away. "have fun with josh"

i started walking through the gate and shoved my hands into my hoodie pockets 

"why are you going to the cemetery?"

"cause" i paused not looking back "im visiting a friend"

-

i walked through the rows of graves until i saw the familiar tree i knew ryan was buried near

i sat down in front of the grave and looked down at the grass.

"h-hey"

i could feel myself start to cry.

"i miss you, i hope-" i swallowed hard "whenever you are its better than here"

"th-thank you for being a good friend, i really miss you and-" the wind blew strongly sending a shiver up my spine

i sat on the grass talking to ryan for probably about half an hour. my phone had gone off a couple times but i didnt let it distract me

i wiped my tears from my face. 

"okay i should go" i pulled my phone out of my pocket seeing texts from frank 

"frank is probably worried and" i stood up brushing myself off "i'll visit again soon ryan. i love you"

-

i was almost back home when i remembered the texts from frank.

'hey ty are you going to joshes party'

'we should go together with gee'

'tyler?'

each message were around 5 minutes apart. 15 minutes later he texted again

'tyler jospeh why arent you answering are you okay??'

i guess i was visiting ryan longer than i had thought

i looked up to see i had made my way home and frank was sitting on the front porch

"uh- frank?"

"tyler!" he jumped up and ran over to hug me and went on a rant of how he was worried something had happened to me. i told him he should really worry less. frank just shot back saying he couldnt help it.

"where the fuck were you" 

i explained where i had gone and why, and about the brendon thing.

"oh, did josh not text you the invite"

"no but i dont care. i dont want to go anyway i dont like parties" i said going to sit where frank had been waiting for me who knows how long

"alright."

-

we ended up going inside to hang out and watch bob's burgers.

i sat on the couch scrolling through instagram when i saw a picture that sparked my interest

it was a picture josh posted with brendon kissing him on the cheek captioned 'we're so cute'

i went to joshes profile to see his bio which was previously  'I'm not sentimental. This skin and bones is a rental.'

and was now the same quote followed by 'taken' and todays date.

i showed frank who then showed me brendons bio which looked like it was written by a 13 year old girl

'-brandon urine-

~milk boy~

*taken*'

which was followed by todays date.

i didnt think brendon even liked josh in that way, i also didnt think josh liked brendon in that way

i turned off my phone and took a second to process that my ex-boyfriend was now dating my deceased friends ex-boyfriend