goner. ;; a joshler fanfic

twenty

ooo getting close to twenty one chapters o.0

my phone buzzed from across the room i reached for it and saw it was a text from frank

'Tyler Tyler Tyler Tyler Tyler Tyler'

'frank frank frank frank frank what'

'guess what!!'

'what'

'come onnn guess'

'uhm idk,, you saw a really cute dog'

'nope.'

'then what??'

i literally had no idea what frank had to tell me. I'm literally the most clueless person on the entire fucking planet. i started at my phone in anticipation when i got a call from him. i immediately picked up.

"what's so great that you had to call?"

"I HAVE AMAZING NEWS" i held the phone a bit further away from my ear. god frank could be loud sometimes.

"WHAT IS IT" i mimicked his excited tone

"ok so-" frank took a quick breath "Gerard and i were hanging out and as you know i really like him and he really likes me and HE ASKED ME OUT AND I SAID YES AND NOW WERE DATING"

"FRANK THATS AMAZING IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU"

"but yea that's all i wanted to say. Gerard mentioned he saw you with Ryan. what's going on there?"

i then told him in full detail what had happened. the Ryan wanted to skip class and wanting to talk thing. the quick conversation with Gerard. the whole thing at Ryan's house. and how Josh kinna freaked out about how i ditched him for Ryan.

"wow. Josh is kinna being douchey like your allowed to have friends, he seemed more chill"

"yea well-"

"you did the right thing though Tyler don't sweat it. not that i don't love talking to you but my mom needs me I'll text you later bye."

"bye"

-

i woke up from getting an hour sleep and checked my phone to see a text from Josh

'sorry abt last night. I'll make it up to u'

'no it's fine don't worried about it' i quickly typed before getting up for school

shortly after Josh picked me up to drive us to school and we rode in quiet.

"so wanna hang out tonight?" he broke the silence

"cant going to franks house sorry"

"oh" i felt bad but i couldnt cancel on frank especially since it wasnt just my best friend. it was my best friend and his new boyfriend id be ditching, i dont want to seem like a douche. "what about lunch,can we have lunch together?" fuck.

"ugh im so sorry jish i already promised.." i paused for a second thinking about what i was getting myself into ".. ryan that id have lunch with his cause hes goi-"

"goddamnit tyler i just want to hang out with my boyfriend when did you get so busy?!" he wants to break up

"im almost always at franks after school so i dont know what your talking about.. im sorry okay?"

"but im the reason your friends with ryan, your ditching me for him. why dont you just go date ryan!" he doesnt care anymore

"josh.." i cant believe him. im allowed to have friends. "yes your the reason i started talking to ryan and thank you. but im allowed to have friends, you never get jealous with frank whats with ryan?" i spoke quietly

"forget it, im sorry. tomorrow? can we have lunch together tomorrow?" so he can break up with you

"sure" we pull up into the school parking lot and i get out. "bye jish have a good day" i say as i walk in the opposite direction as him

"you too ty"

-

"are you okay tyler? you havent touched your lunch" ryan looks up at me with concerned eyes

"yea im good" he gave me a disbelieving look

"come on whats wrong"

"to be honest, i think josh is jealous of you. and-" i was about to talk about blurryface's sudden reappearance but decide he'll think im crazy if he knows im schizophrenic

"no way" he tried to hide his smirk "why though?"

"i have no idea, hes been kinna clingy since we started dating" i said taking a sip from my water bottle

we moved on to talking about other things and eventually i ate my lunch. then once lunch ended we started walking to art class.

"so you wanna have lunch with me again tomorrow?"

"oo cant, josh is kinna getting pissed im not spending time with him. but we could hang out this weekend if you want" thatd leave friday open for lunch with josh which hed be pleased about

"sounds good"

-

after josh drives me home a get a text from frank telling me now would be a good time to head over. i grab my earbuds put my music on shuffle and start walking to franks.

as a walk up the front steps i take out my earbuds and let myself in.

"im home!" i said as i saw frank and gerard sitting on the couch

"hey tyler, do you always let yourself in like that" he smirked

"sometimes" i closed the door and kicked off my shoes "frank does the same at my house"

"sounds like something hed do" gerard looks over at frank with caring eyes. you can tell frank means alot to him. if only you meant half of that to josh

franks phone goes off then announces hes sorry but he'll be back soon. he heads out the door leaving gerard and i awkwardly sitting in the living room.

"so, how are things with josh" i started at him blankly not knowing what to say

"uhm-"

"dont worry i wont tell him anything you dont want me to"

"no its just- hes kinna getting jealous of my friend ryan."

"why he seems like a great kid?"

"well yesterday i ditched josh for ryan cause hes going through a break up but i didnt tell josh that cause sometimes ryan has lunch with me and josh and i dont want ryan to feel uncomfortable or anything. then josh wanted to hang out after school i said no im going to franks, he asked about having lunch together i said sorry i was having lunch with ryan and i dont know, hes kinna been douchey lately."

"yea he gets like that. once you show him attention he wont want anything less. just talk to him about it im sure he will understand"

gerard was easy to talk to. we talked a bit more about josh, how he and frank we dating then he showed me some stuff he wrote on guitar and i sang him some songs ive been working on and we had a pretty good time. it wasnt until frank walked through the door and apologized for taking so long that we remembered he had left. it was getting late so i decided to walk home before it got dark, gerard and i exchanged numbers so we could hang out some time.

i walked home and stuck my earbuds into my ears and blasted some music

Now I know

That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

And I know
There's nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...