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What is today anyways?

September 19, 2013

I haven't been very nice. But I really want you to know that I really do love you, mom.

 I loved you, okay?

It was really hard to come home every day after school and see how your life was deteriorating. Honestly, it is hard to watch someone I love die.

But it's hard to say that I'm feeling the love anymore. Do you really love me anymore? Doubtful, how can you?

Dad was telling stories about how he first met mom during our family hotdog cookout the other night. It was a cute story. A part of me now is surprised that my parents ever managed to get together though. It's an even bigger surprise that I ended up being born. Well, it really was a miracle; that's all I know about it.

So I must be proof of a miracle. Haha.

See mom, miracles really can happen.

So it really wasn't that off that I thought you'd ever get better. It was unrealistic. It was dumb. It was retarded. It was stupid of me. But there was absolutely nothing wrong with that.

Sleep is the most beautiful thing this world sees.

 Oh, Chris was especially funny today.

So we were doing a group contest (he's in my group, of course), and for the contest we had to list the top ten largest states. Chris was like, "Oh, what's that state called that looks like this?" And he drew this blob on the paper that kind of reminded me of spilled milk for some reason. I laughed. It was funny, okay. He can't draw; he really can't. But it was cute.

We also were supposed to list the top ten fastest animals, and Chris spent half the time trying to convince me that elephants are among the fastest creatures that walk this earth. Fyi they aren't. Haha.

He claimed elephants could really get going when they wanted to.

I've honestly really never even heard of a fast stampede of elephants.

Today, Chris brought a bottle of water with him to class but somehow forgot his book, so he leaned over and shared with me. I, of course, pointed out the fact that he had remembered his water but not his dumb textbook.

He studied his water bottle for a minute and gave me that million dollar smile. "Yeah, I gotta stay hydrated!" Haha.

I've got a fire that's burning in the depths of my soul.

 I don't know why I'd bother telling my dead mother anything about my life at all. But I think I miss you mom.

Why, I was just thinking in choir how I'd like to at least see some of my old memories again. That's weird, huh?

I hate choir by the way.

I have fire burning in my soul, and not even the oceans can put it out.

I miss you so much, mom. I miss you so much that it's crazy.

What I really need right now is a fast, very very fast stampede of elephants that can really go. Yup. Haha.

Grayson.

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No, I got it!! I'll sing for you!!! Okay okay, I was kidding. That'd be more like a punishment. Lol.