A Single Year in the Life of a Teenager (Editing)

Week 20 (Unedited)

10/09/16Hey people! I had so much fun! I went to Samm's  party today and it was so fun! It was me, Ashley and Splash, and  obviously Samm. We opened presents and had an ice cream pie first  because Splash had to leave pretty quickly. Samm, Ashley had some fun  dancing to songs, playing games, and talking. We also got ice cream  which was really good. We went to the park for a bit but didn't stay  long because it was dark. I hope that Samm really had fun,  because I did. I'm also excited that tomorrow is the black belt hiking  trip, and Samm's actual birthday. It's going to be so fun! I'm pretty  tired so good night people!10/10/16Hey  people! I loved the hiking trip today! My instructor was a little late,  but we still got to the park pretty early. It was so beautiful out  there. Team Red was there, so was King of the Broken, and lots of the  other black belts. We saw an otter out there too. Or at least I think it  was an otter. King of the Broken named the otter Stewart. It was very  cute. Then for the rest of the trip he was looking to see Stewart  again. I got home and then remembered I needed to finish like  two projects. It wasn't too hard, but it was one more thing that I  didn't want to do. Oh, Danny accepted my chat, but didn't say anything.  I'm just going to act the same tomorrow so it won't matter what he has  to say something about it not me. That might make me a coward but I  don't care. If he hadn't seen it at all I was going to tell him at a  cast party after the show or something. I'll keep you people posted on  what happens with him, but it'll probably be nothing. Well, I want to be  well rested for tomorrow, so I'm going to go to bed soon. Good night  people!10/11/16Hey people! Well,  today I saw Danny and he talked to me as usual, so I don't know if he  knows or not. Or if he does he doesn't care, which I am fine with.  Mostly. Rehearsal for drama was fun, we got to be in makeshift costumes  so everyone looked awesome. Then during rehearsal I saw Danny and this  freshman Vanessa sitting together. They had done that before, but then I  saw his arm around her. It hurt a lot to see that. I also tried to  convince myself that it wasn't anything intimate, but then when  rehearsal was over I saw them walking together to his car and holding  hands. I felt sick. I still feel sick. If he knows I like him, and that  was his way of saying he's not interested, message received. I'm not  going to cry for him. He's not worth it. Well, other than that I had a good day, but I am tired so I'm going to go to bed. Good night people!10/12/16Hey  people! Today not much happened, or nothing very important. Well, I did  hear about how Danny's last relationship had ended, that he cheated on  his ex whole they were dating and that he was a jerk to her when she  broke up with him. I also overheard them  (the ex and her friends)  talking about how Danny is doing the same thing to Vanessa that he did  to her. Needless to say I've lost most of my interest in Danny. It seems  like I always fall for the guys who have something bad going on. The  guy I liked last year called himself a sociopath, or possibly a  psychopath. I believed him, but we had talked about so many intellectual  things and had some of the same interests so I kind of ignored that.  And the other guy said he didn't want a relationship so he was okay I  guess. And my freshman year I liked a guy who was (playfully I hoped) a  jerk towards everyone. When I told him I liked him, he said okay,  thanks. Maybe I just shouldn't try to date or talk to guys anymore. Well, that was about it. I had a bunch of homework, so I'm going to go to bed. Night people!10/13/16Hey  people! I think I can say that I'm over Danny. I think that even before  I told him I could kind of tell that there was something bad about him.  Something off. So I guess it didn't leave much ache left in my heart.  It's okay though. Or it's okay enough. I haven't told my friends about  this because I didn't want to talk about how he is bad and stuff. I'm  still going to talk to him, but I'm not crushing on him anymore. And if  anyone notices that I am, please stop me and remind me of what he did. Taekwondo  was fun tonight, and no one got hurt which was a plus. I was late  because I forgot what time it started, so I went to adult class instead  of my regular class. It was still fun. Well, that's all for today so  goodnight people!10/14/16Hey  people! Yay! School is over for the week! I'm pretty happy about that,  especially because I had so much due this week project and test wise.  Ashley had invited me to an escape room thing, and we were going to go  and I was really excited. Then her parents said they didn't want to take  her. I was kinda sad but it didn't make me angry or anything. I'm more  just like oh well. For  my creative writing class, two people brought in two dozen doughnuts,  so there were a lot left. There were twenty, and I thought I had poetry  club after school, so I said I would take the doughnuts. I found out  during the day that we didn't, so after school I just started offering  people doughnuts. Within ten minutes, going straight from my locker to  the front door, all of the doughnuts were gone. I was really surprised  at how many people wanted doughnuts. Many people were very thankful for  them, and they said they loved me because I was giving out doughnuts. It  was kind of funny, especially because they probably won't even remember  on Monday. There was nothing else interesting that happened today. So, I guess that's it. Good night people!10/15/16I  had Taekwondo this morning, and one of the instructors is on vacation,  so my instructor's boyfriend came to help teach. It's always fun when he  comes because he is more lax about rules and about how hard we work. We  also did ground defense which was fun to watch and do. After  Taekwondo I went to go see a movie with parents, which was fun. I was  glad to spend time with them, especially since my dad isn't always  around since his work is driving. For the rest of the day I worked on my  poetry portfolio, and for one part I'm supposed to have a poem inspired  by an author that we picked. When I wrote it I tried to make sure it  could stand alone, and I hope I did. I shared it with my group on a  group chat. Splash, Mara, and Samm liked it. So  did Ashley, but then she started saying it was depressing. She tried to  show me it was by taking out the ending, which changed the meaning of  it. The ending was the part that redeemed the whole poem, and made it  hopeful. That's how I write and so I was very confused and kind of  scared that she would report me to a guidance counselor at our school  when I'm fine. It wasn't even about depression it was about a person. A  person that doesn't even exist. I made it up. I can't go to a guidance  counselor because they will make me go to a psychiatrist which my family  can't afford right now. I know she's just trying to make sure I'm okay,  but I am okay. Well I'm super tired, and I have to get some  homework done tomorrow before I go volunteer for a board breakathon at  two and go to practice at six. So, goodnight people!