A Single Year in the Life of a Teenager (Editing)

Week 43 (Unedited)

03/19/17Hey people! Today was better than yesterday. I  didn't have to go anywhere, or have anything I had to do. We did go get  some of the last things for my prom dress, so I at least know that the  dress is still getting made. If I'll actually have money for a ticket to  junior prom, I still don't know. But we'll see. I spent the rest of the  day watching movies with my dad since he had to be home. We both were  under blankets since it was cold inside. Someone should be coming  tomorrow to fix the heat. Then we'll at least be warm. I didn't do much today, but it's getting late so I should probably go to sleep. Goodnight people!03/20/17Hey  people! Today was pretty good. During the day we got our heat fixed so  it's warm inside our house now. In the afternoon I went to Taekwondo and  watched Lioness' kids. They were nice and quiet today and I got lots of  hugs. I didn't help with class but I did take class which was fun. We  sparred today which kind of hurt since my period started today. I got to  work on my form, which I'm proud of. It's gotten so much better and I  already thought it was good. I still need to work on my balance but even  that isn't horrible. It's my favorite thing to do there and I think  it's getting to where I want it to be. I've  also been working at home on my flexibility and my strength by working  out. I only stretched today, but tomorrow I want to do both. Hopefully  I'll remember to. I want to get stronger honestly just because I want to  be. Not to protect myself, or to brag. Just to be stronger and be able  to do more. It will probably make me more confident too. Not that I am  not confident already but confidence is good as long as it doesn't turn  into arrogance. After  Taekwondo I didn't do much, just watched Netflix while my mom cut out  the fabric for my dress. I'm pretty excited to try it on. Her goal is to  have it done by the end of my spring break. I hope tat she will so that  it can be done and I can try it on and be able to show my friends. Well it's getting pretty late. I should probably sleep. Goodnight people!03/21/17Hey  people! Today was a pretty good day ask things considered. It's Crazy's  birthday do I wished her a happy birthday. I texted her a long  paragraph since she's still in school this week. Her break is next  week.  I  didn't do much during the day, I just watched tv with my dad and did my  laundry. It was nice to try and relax but I still feel stressed because  of all three things going on at Taekwondo. We have a demo this  weekend's, so I'm going to have to miss Crazy's birthday party on  Saturday. There's also testing on Saturday which we now cannot pay for. Taekwondo  class itself was not too stressful. I got to leave early since I was  the only one there which was nice. I went through my weapon form and  then decided to go home. Once  I got home I watched some more tv to try and destress myself. Just  thinking about everything going on makes me nervous and anxious. I  just hope that Dad gets his job back. He told me that if he doesn't  he's returning our new car. So then I won't have my own car anymore. I  know it was a privilege I'm the first place but it is my car. It feels  like my car now. And now I might have to give it back. I should go to bed. Goodnight people!03/22/17Hey  people. Today was good. Except I broke down crying. I had an  appointment with my scholarship's college counselor. She asked done  pretty basic get to know me questions which was fine, but then we got to  financials. Then add I was explaining what was going on I started  crying because I was very stressed and scared about what was going to  happen. She helped calm me down and then we went on to talking about  colleges. The rest of the meeting went well, and I feel more secure  about college. She told me that I should talk to someone about the  stress I'm feeling. I think that I will if I can actually find time to  do so. Taekwondo  was good too. I went to help with the enormous amount of tigers (kids  3-6, all in one class). There were a couple running around the whole  time, and Lioness was gone so it was a bit harder to control them. After  that, the rest of the classes were okay. And anytime anyone was a pain,  I could at least make them do pushups, which was better. My instructor  was very glad to have my help, and I was happy to help. Now I'm home and not much has happened since. I think I'll be going to bed soon, so goodnight people!03/23/17Hey  people! Today was pretty good. Except that I realized that since my dad  didn't have a job at the moment I wouldn't be able to test on Saturday.  Or go to the tournament and compete. Or anything that cost money. I did  cry for a bit, but I eventually went to watch the Lioness' kids. It  wasn't too bad, except for the fact Lioness had a private lesson so I  had to watch them for longer than I expected. I didn't mind too much  though. They were a bit clingy and demanding but it was okay. Lioness  was very thankful for my help and left soon after her private lesson.  Vanessa had a performance of musical today, so we didn't have our  tutoring session. I was okay with that, I just watched classes and got  food instead. Since I didn't have tutoring, I didn't have any more  money, so I didn't get much in terms of food. I wasn't that hungry  though so it was okay. I  stayed for adult class and stretched for a bit, but since I was feeling  tired we didn't do anything else. The other person was just as tired as  I was, so it was okay. I went home a little early from class, which was  nice since I was so tired. I'm still pretty tired, so I should probably go to sleep. Goodnight people!03/24/17Today  was fun. During the day I didn't do much, but in the evening I went  shopping with my grandma. She had offered to take me shopping for  anything I needed for prom which I gratefully took her up on. She picked  me up, and we went on our shopping adventure. The  first place we went was to get shoes. We went to Shoe Carnival which  had lots of different shoes and they all looked really nice. I got a  pair of silver three inches heels that I absolutely loved. It had an  open toe and buckle strap towards the top to make sure the shoe stayed  on. It also was very sparkly and flashy which I liked. I might not seem  like a super girly girl, but I do like shoes. Not just heels, but  sneakers, tennis shoes, flip flops, sandals, etc. I like comfort in  shoes first, but they can't be super boring either. I like all the  different designs of shoes and how they can be used with so many  different outfits to complement or elevate an outfit. I might not have a  million pairs of shoes but I still like them. After  that we went to the mall and got dinner. I had pizza because pizza is  amazing. It was nice to talk to my grandma about life and how it was  going. It was really relaxing. After  that we went to get me a strapless bra since I need one for the way my  prom dress is. The shoulder parts are see through so people would be  able to see the straps if I don't wear a strapless bra. I found one that  worked, and then we left the mall. Grandma dropped me off at home. I'm feeling pretty tired so I think I'll be going to bed. Goodnight people!03/25/17Hey  people! Today was pretty good but there were some sad moments. I went  to help with the testing I usually would be taking. I didn't really mind  helping instead of testing. Then someone asked why I wasn't testing and  so I told them about what happened. And I almost started crying because  it makes me scared and tense. They told me it was going to be okay and  that I was always welcome at Taekwondo. That reassured me until I  thought about the idea of not having enough money to continue my going  to Taekwondo. I pushed the thought away as much as I could and enjoyed  the rest of testing. Testing  was fun to watch and help with. I actually got to see how good  everyone's form was, and how they were with their weapon and sparring.  It was fun to cheer everyone on and to not have any pressure on me  specifically. After  testing we had demo practice which went very well. We did need the  practice though. I'm kind of glad the demo that was supposed to be today  got moved. We weren't completely ready yet. Not to perform outside of  the school. Next weekend will be better now that we've had more time to  practice and improve the demo. We also have practice tomorrow which will  be nice. After  demo practice I went home. My mom and I worked on my prom dress. Well,  she worked on it while I was wearing it. We got a lot done but I think  we're going to do the last bit of adjusting tomorrow. I'm feeling pretty tired so I should probably go to bed. Goodnight people!