A Single Year in the Life of a Teenager (Editing)

Week 36 (Unedited)

01/29/17Hey people! I had a pretty good day. I didn't do  much other than homework and making chocolate cupcakes. I was bored and  a couple days ago it was national chocolate cake day so I wanted to  make some cupcakes in honor of that day. It's never too late for  chocolate cupcakes. Never. Tomorrow  is the first day of musical rehearsal, which I am super excited about.  Mara is too and we're going to spend after school together doing  homework and hanging out before rehearsal starts. This is going to be  the senior's last show. It makes me sad just to think about it but I  know I'm going to enjoy as much of it as I can without going crazy. Since  I have school tomorrow I should probably go to bed. Sadly since I  stayed up last night I'm not very tired now. I'll try anyways. Goodnight  people!01/30/17Hey people! Today  was very long but fun. School was pretty normal and after school I spent  time with Mara. We did homework and listened to Hamilton. We waited for  rehearsal to start.Rehearsal  was pretty fun today. We learned some of the songs and I got to see so  many of my friends. I was glad to meet the new freshman and to be with  my drama family. I honestly love them so much and this will be the  seniors' last show. It makes me sad to think about it, but I'm glad that  I have gotten to know them all and I get to be in this show with them. I'm feeling pretty tired and I know tomorrow I'll be tired with Taekwondo and ACT prep and homework. Goodnight people!01/31/17Hey  people! Today was filled with lots of stress-inducing stuff. At school I  had a bunch of homework and I only got about half of it done before I  got too tired. I had a quiz in Spanish and I think I did pretty well on  it. Or at least I hope so. The  ACT prep class wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Plus Ashley was  there which made it before and after more fun. She said she might switch  classes to Tuesdays and Thursdays so then she'll be there all the  time. After  the class was over I went home to eat dinner before Taekwondo. It was  very close in timing but that was partially because I lost track of time  at one point. I wasn't late for Taekwondo but I was very close to being  late. Taekwondo was fun, and during adult class I was the only one  there so I got focused on and we worked on my form. Specifically my foot  positioning during my kicks. It was painful but I know it will help in  the end. I talked with my instructor also about going to worlds, which  doesn't seem like it will be possible if I take summer school for  theology because I'm not supposed to miss any of it. She told me that it  might be easier for me to go to nationals and practice testing there.  I'm thinking that might be best so that I get to do everything I think I  need to do. I'm feeling super tired and kind of stressed  since I have so much going on. I really should go to bed so that I feel  well rested to make my stress levels lower. Goodnight people!02/01/17Hey  people! Today was somewhat stressful, but it wasn't too overwhelming. I  had a mini presentation in Spanish that gave me a bunch of anxiety. I  just don't feel comfortable with Spanish so it's not fun. I got a bunch  of homework today, and I had to try and find time to work on the group  piece. I stayed after school for a bit to work on it. One of my group  members was able to come which made it a lot better. I have ACT prep  tomorrow so I won't be at poetry so I hope it goes well. I'll find out  on Friday. I finished my homework late. I feel really tired  but I'm over halfway done with the week. I know I need to sleep so I'm  going to go do that. Goodnight people!02/02/17Hey  people! Today was a full day. I had school where I had homework in each  of my classes. Then I had ACT prep. Today was math and science so It  wasn't very difficult for me. Thankfully Ashley gave me a ride home so I  had enough time to eat before going to tutor Vanessa. Since I'm  starting rehearsal we switched the days I would meet with her. It was a  bit tiring but I still got through it. One of her problems didn't make  sense. I wrote a note to her teacher so hopefully her teacher will be  able to explain it to her. After  that I went to Taekwondo. My mind was tired so making my body tired  made sense. I worked on my foot position for most of the time. It got  much better than it was. I'm very exhausted so I think what  will be best is sleeping. I still have homework but I don't have the  energy to do it. That's what study hall was for. Goodnight people!02/03/17Hey  people! Today was less jammed packed but still. I had a math test that I  believe I did well on. I also finished my homework from yesterday  before school even started so I used my study halls to work on my  research paper and to relax a bit. After  school I went to poetry club. I didn't feel very helpful though. We  were working on the group piece and I didn't even think that I could  help. I don't know if I'm even good at poetry. So, once I left what did I  do? I wrote a poem. Very ironic. I guess I'll post it here: Faux PoetWords in my mind rearranging and changingyet nothing I plan to say feels good enough. No matter how many times I think I've got it right It always seems just a bit too wrongLike puzzle pieces forced together when they don't fitBut are shoved there to remain in discordEvery time I want to speak I feel silenced By doubt that it's not good enoughI may be safe in the space I am in Yet I do not feel secure.Like a house before it is a homeBut after time it still doesn't feel like home.Every bit of writing seems too similar to others for me to call my ownEvery idea already claimed by an earlier timeNo matter how original it sounds it does not sound like mineEven in speaking I can memorized lines and project emotionsBut my own seem out of reach and my rhythm in speech isn't rightNot for poetry at leastI try to define and find a universe where monologues and poetry are easily spoken from my voiceYet every time whether spoken in rhyme or free verse it doesn't emit anything that pleases my ear like a melody shouldI am told that anything can be poetry but I can't seem to find anything that sounds like one in my voice. In my mind I can think of many lyrical verses yet I can produce none of themMaybe my mind isn't wired to create these linesAnd internal rhymes No matter how inspired I may beWhat I create does not seem like my poetry No matter how long I think I can't seem to find a way to string my thoughts together poetically. Yet the most perplexing part of this isI do not know if this is a poem. I  haven't done much else today. I have been reading a couple stories on  here on and off all day. Tomorrow is going to be a full day with  Taekwondo and demo practice and them watching two kids. The kids are my  parents' friend's kids. They're not too crazy so it shouldn't be too  tough. I should get some sleep though. Goodnight people!02/04/17Hey  people! Today was pretty hectic, but very fun. I went to Taekwondo in  the morning and helped with classes as usual. We had demo practice today  so I got lunch at McDonald's. Mop's mom offered to get me a frosty  which I eventually gave in to getting. She wasn't pushing me but kept  saying "are you sure?" so I eventually said yes. I wasn't too upset  about it. Demo  practice itself was pretty fun. We learned a new form for a demo we may  or may not be doing. The time flew by and soon I was going home. I read  stories until I realized it was time to go. I hadn't eaten dinner  before I went to babysit.Babysitting  wasn't too hard. The boy (who is older) stayed in his room playing  video games. The girl was very easy to entertain. Soon that was over and  I sent them to bed. About an hour later their mom came home and I got  paid. I'm guessing since I'm not used to earning money I like the idea  of getting it. Plus I usually don't have money to spend on myself.  That's what I'm planning to do with part of it. I got home  late. I've been tired for so long I don't feel tired. I think all I'm  going to do is eat something (maybe) and go to sleep. Goodnight people!