1984 - A David Bowie Fanfic.

Blackstar.

Hi readers,

I'm flying to America tomorrow which means it could be difficult to update my story whilst I'm over there! However I'll try my absolute best to get these chapters out!
- BusyScott x

"Stay the night." I insist. "Please, I need you." I plead to him.

"Ros I-"

"David, please." I beg, close my eyes and touch his forehead with mine.

"I can't!" He snaps. "My flight leaves later today..."

I burst into more tears. "No!" I howl.

The boys run downstairs and look at me worriedly. "David? What's going on?" His son, Ziggy asks.

"I'm-"

"He's leaving us, boys." I wipe my tears from my hot cheeks and lean against the wall for support.

"What?!" Tommy begins to sob and soon starts crying madly.

Henry rushes down the stairs and holds Tommy close to his chest, Tommy continues to weep until there wasn't a single tear left in his little body.

Ziggy puts his arm round his little brother and then looks up to David with sad eyes. If Ziggy ever gave me those eyes, I'd never be able to forgive myself.

"Ros-" David starts, clearly ready to apologise again.

"Goodbye David." I mutter.

"I swear to you Ros, I'll fix this."

"All you ever do is break things for me! How could you possibly fix my broken heart and my children's...!? You're a celebrity, you always will be! Till the day you die Bowie! And what am I?! Some girl from South London, I'm a nobody compared to the famous David Bowie!" I scream angrily back.

"There's a way, there's always a way to fix things." David mutters. "I'll be back in a few weeks, I promise."

"David!" Tommy shouts and puts his hands in the air, indicating a goodbye hug.

David does so, then kisses the top of Ziggy's head.

"Give Zowie my best, tell him I'll see him soon." I mutter.

"Come here," David whispers and I do as he says. He kisses my cheek gently and then he smiles. "I'll be back before you know it. If you need me, call my phone, I'll answer. I promise."

I just nod, I couldn't believe he was just walking out on us... I was so hurt, it felt like everyone I loved was slowly leaving me. Dad, Margo, William, David... Who next?!

I run out to David who is already turning the engine on to his black open top roofed car, my breathing at a random pattern and I mange to say clearly enough:

"Tell me something."

"Blue Jean," He purrs like his car. "I love you."

"I love you too Blackstar." I manage to say.

He winks at me, then finally turns left out of my drive and on his way to the airport most likely.

My hand slaps over my mouth...

What did you just say?!

"Mum?" Ziggy says at the door, how long had I been standing there for?

"I'm coming in now Zigs." I say and walk towards my home.

***

I hear the door slam, I was washing the breakfast plates in the sink, I had only just dropped the boys off at school. I knew exactly who it was. It couldn't have been David, he was in Germany now. Margo was in America and Henry was back at his posh university.

"Oh, you finally remembered you had a wife and two children." I spit and wipe my hands with a dishcloth.

"Yeah, well, you know, signal was terrible and work was drowning me!" He laughs.

"Really?" I spit bitterly. "Because I spoke to your work, and they said-"

"You called my work?" He says angrily.

"Only to find out that my husband has been lying to me about these business trips." I growl.

"You're insane." He laughs again and tried to kiss me.

"Get off me!" I hiss. "So, how was Greece?"

"What?"

"Did you go with another woman?!" I shout hurt.

"Ros-"

"Did you or didn't you?!"

"Jesus! Yes!" He screams. "Yes I did!"

"You little bast-"

"Oh go wash you mouth out you sly woman!" He strikes at me. "You make me sound like the villain in this marriage!"

"Because you are!"

"Really? So when were you going to tell me about David, huh?" He snaps.

"I don't no what you're-"

"Rubbish! You no exactly what I mean. Going on dates with him? Spending nights at his? Letting Ziggy meet his biological father?!"

"I haven't told Ziggy a single thing about David!" I shout back harder, like a big gust of wind.

"So what of him? Have you slept with him?" Will sounds more upset now.

"Jesus! No! Will! I would never-"

"Really?" He mutters.

"I swear to you!" I grab his hand, almost pleading him to believe me.

"So now what?"

"You don't trust me do you?" I ask him, however there was a slight tone in my voice that suggested it was a fact, not a question.

"Do you trust me?" He asks back.

No, no I don't. I just want David home...

"Will, you've been unfaithful to me..."

"And you haven't?!"

"I have done nothing!" I screech.

"Liar!" He exclaims.

"Sleep on the sofa, and you sleep there until you realise I'm not the cheat in this marriage."

You kissed Bowie. You kissed Bowie. You told Bowie you loved him.

"Fine, then I will. Try explaining that one to the boys!" William laughs.

"Oh should I mention it at the same time I tell Ziggy you're not his real dad?"

"That enough!" Will roars. "Right," he finally breathes. "right..." He repeats. "We've both been unfaithful, yes?"

No, not really.

But I just nod at him. "Then I suppose we just look past it, learn to forgive each other and go back to how we were."

But I don't want to forget, William's cheated on me, run off on a romantic holiday with a different woman... How can I look past that?

"I'm only doing this for the boys."

"Just count your lucky stars that I'm not chucking you out on the streets!" He spits.

No, I only have one star to count on...

... My Blackstar.