Jumping Bases ((EDITING))

Chapter 47 (Ryan)

Anxiety.

I woke up about an hour earlier than I would usually. My mind would not quit wondering and thinking about what happened yesterday. Was that his twisted and psychotic way to tell me he loved me? I'm sure I am just over thinking this...

I stopped at the red light across from the university and heard my phone vibrate in my bag. I checked the light then searched for my buzzing phone.

Ryan; we’re not done talking yet...

I put my phone back down and gripped the steering wheel with both hands. I watched as the light changed then slowly drove into the parking lot. As I parked, I saw Maya closing her car door and walking towards the building. After parking and walking through the lot, I caught up to her when we were in the hallway.

“Maya!” I called.

She kept walking and I furrowed my eyebrows together.

“What’s up? Are you mad at me?” I asked.

Maya turned to me and shot me a sharp glare, answering my question. Why was she acting this way? What did I do?

“Can you at least tell me why?”

She stopped walking and looked around before focusing back on me, “you are changing, Kristen” she simply said.

“What do you mean?” I froze.

“What do I mean?” she repeated “our friendship isn't the same as it used to be. You never talk to me anymore and you never have time to hang out. We’re not the same and you obviously don’t care so why should I?”

“Are you serious? I have not changed” I said more to myself “just because I barely have enough time and sometimes not in the mood does not mean I don’t want to hang out. And how can you say that? You know I care”

“Whatever, Kristen” she sighed.

“Since when have you felt like this?” I crossed my arms.

“I'll see you later” she turned around.

“Since Ryan,” I answered myself, knowing she wouldn’t “ 4 months, huh?”

She slowly turned around.

“Is that how you honestly feel? Like I would put him above my best friend?” how could she even say that I don’t care? We have been best friends since the beginning, for at least 10 years. I have not changed, if anything she is the one changing, not me. She is the one who goes to a bunch of parties, doesn’t focus on anything, forgets about the people in her life, talks to various guys and a new personality.

“Ryan has changed you”

“Just because I am not that shy girl who would sit at home doing homework all day, does not mean he changed me. I am so much better now. I used to let people step over me, I would never raise my voice and always be known as that chick in that class-”

“So you’re defending him?” she stepped closer to me with a threatening look in her eye.

“No, I'm not. I'm defending myself because I won't stand here and listen to you accusing me of changing because of a boy” I said “if anything, you are the one who has been different. Not since Ryan, but before that. You have never been the same since we got to university”

Well in some sense, I kinda am defending Ryan...

“Are you even listening to yourself?” her voice raised and she now seemed angry “You sound like a loon, Kristen!You have changed! You aren't the same!" she paused then took a deep breath to control her rising temper "Whenever you get your head screwed back on and start thinking about someone else besides yourself, then you call me” she fired.