Abby’s Point of View
Scarlett is growing up too fast, she’s only fourteen months old but it’s still all too fast. Her first word, and only word is ‘dada’ sure I would’ve loved if she said ‘mama’ first but whatever. Oli does spend more time with her because I’m at work all the time. But I don’t know if I can take care of her all on my own for the next few months; Bring Me the Horizon is going on a two month tour for their new album that was released yesterday, it is called ‘There is a Hell Believe Me I’ve Seen It, There is a Heaven Let’s Keep It A Secret’. I haven’t had a chance to listen to it yet but it seems like it is a good album, they spent a long time working on it. I heard the door unlock and Oli came in with Scarlett in her carrier thingy. “Hey Babe, how was seeing your parents?” I asked as he set everything down on the couch. I grabbed Scarlett out of her carrier and he just shrugged, “As good as it can be, it’s my parent.” He said bluntly and sat down next to me and wrapped his arms around me. “I’m going to miss you.” I said quietly and I nodded, I’m still trying to convince myself he is not actually leaving. “What time do you have to leave by?” I asked and he looked at me but I couldn’t read his expression. “I have to be at the airport by noon, so want to go out for breakfast before I leave?” he asked and I just nodded because if I spoke I know I’d start crying. I’m going to miss my love so much; and I just got him back. After a while we stood up and made our way upstairs, I set Scarlett in her room in her crib and tucked her in for bed. I walked out of her room and shut her door behind me; Matty was standing in the hallway talking to Oli. When I shut the door Oli looked over to me and smiled, “I’m going to get going, I have to finish packing for tour. I’ll pick you and Scarlett up at eight. Goodnight Love.” He said and kissed my cheek before turning back to Matt and telling him our plan for tomorrow and he said he’d meet him at the airport. And then he was gone. Once Oli left I turned to Matty who had moved back in a few months back, he could only stay at Matt Kean’s for so long and Oli said it was best if he just lived back at his apartment but he was over here all the time. “I’m glad you two made up and I’m happy for you and all but…” he said and I just looked at him. “But what?” I asked confused and he shrugged. “But I don’t know if it’s right, you hurt him once and I don’t need you almost killing my lead singer again.” He said, I didn’t almost kill…..shit. Yes I did, I didn’t know it was that bad. “What happened Matt, no one told me shit when we weren’t dating.” I said and he laughed slightly. “That’s because you were a bitch and no one wanted to talk to you.” He said bluntly and I sighed, I was going to protest but it was true.
Matty’s Point of View
*Flashback*
“Hello is this Matt Nichollos?” an unfamiliar female voice said down the phone. “Yes it is, who is this?” I asked and I heard a faint beeping in the background. “My name is Mary I’m a first respondent, someone had called the hospital and when we got to the house there was only one person there and he was unconscious. His phone was in his pocket when we took him to the ambulance and you were an emergency contact on his phone.” She said but I was still confused. “Okay, so what happened?” I asked nervously. “your friend, I presume, Oliver, might not make it, at this time we don’t know what is the cause but your friend is not in good condition.” She said and I couldn’t breathe, what happened to Oli? I heard the faint beeping slow down. “I have to go, come to the hospital whenever.” She frantically said and gave me the hospital address before she hung up. I ran out to my car and sped to the hospital. Once I got there I checked in and they told me I couldn’t see him yet because he was in ICU. I sat in the waiting room for what seemed like forever before they finally called me back.
The nurse led me back to Oli’s room, when I walked into his room I heard that faint beeping, it was the heart monitor thing. I walked next to his bed and sat down, the nurse left me alone with him and I waited a few minutes for him to wake up, but he didn’t. An hour passed and he finally woke up, he just looked around the room and then at me and sighed heavily and then tried to unhook all of the wires form his arm. “What are you trying to do?” I almost yelled. “Finish killing myself, obviously. Mate, I don’t want to be here, and I just can’t be here anymore. It’s been a month and the thoughts and feelings won’t go away and the cuts just keep getting deeper and I can’t take it anymore. Either I’m going to end up killing myself or she needs to at least talk to me and I don’t foresee that happening so if you don’t mind…” he said and then began trying to unhook his machines again. “Will you stop mate, we will get through this and things will get better, I promise.” I said and he lay back down and groaned. “Why didn’t I see it sooner, what a knob head I must seem like. Am I stupid for wanting her back still?” he asked and I shrugged, how could I tell him I think my own sister is a whore and a waste of his time?
*End Flashback*
I finished telling her about our first hospital visit she was crying but I don’t to try and comfort her because she nearly killed my best fucking friend. “I’m so sorry.” She said and I shook my head. “Don’t tell it to me, tell it to the man who is still killing himself over it.” I said before walking into my room. I’m not stupid, I know Oli still cuts on a daily basis, although I wish he didn’t but he won’t listen to me.
