Why Him?

Labor pains

I arrive at the hospital and I'm checked into a room. Minutes later my mom arrives. "Hey there baby girl. I got here as fast as possible. How ya doing?" I give what I can only describe as a death stare. "How am I doing? I'm currently enduring pure torture." she brushes my hair out of my face. "I know you are. Did you call Riley?" I shake my head. "No. I don't want anyone else up here besides you." she takes a seat. "Well me and Josh right?" I stay silent. She crosses her arms. "You did call Josh right?" I shake my head. "No I didn't. I don't want him here." "Whatever reasons you have for not wanting here are not good enough. Its not right for him to miss the birth of his child because of whatever reason you have."

It been an two hours and it just keeps getting worse. I'm terrified. Not of giving birth but it being too early. It was supposed to be at least 8 more weeks. What if he doesn't make it? My thoughts are interrupted when Josh walks in. "What are you doing here?" my mom stands up. "I called him. He deserved to know." she walks out of the room and Josh walks over to me. Before he can say anything I speak. "I'm in an enormous amount of pain that you could never understand so sit down, be quiet, and hold my hand before I break the railing of this hospital bed. Or get out." I get another contraction and Josh grabs my hand. I squeeze his tight. It ends and I lay my head back and close my eyes. "I can't do this. I thought I could but I can't." he gently squeezes my hand. "Maya you are the toughest girl I know. If anyone can do it, its you." I keep my eyes closed not wanting to look at him. His words are sweet. I don't want to get sucked into it again. This is why I don't want him here. I don't want to get sucked back in. But I know I will if I'm not careful.

The hours go by painfully slow. The pain is getting worse and worse. I can hardly breath from the pain. Even though I asked Farkle not to tell anyone that I was going into labor he did so now all of the Matthews are here. My mom is talking with Topanga and Josh is getting more ice chips. Which I can't stand by the way. Why can't I just drink water!? Riley comes in and sits down. "I don't know what to say." I scold her. "Don't say anything." she nods and sits in silence. I moan. "Don't just not say anything either!" Riley laughs. "Well what do you want me to do?" Josh walks back in. "How ya doin?" I groan. "Ugh!!!" Riley stands up. "She's all yours." she walks out of the room and Josh takes her place. I look over at him. "Josh it has been 10 hours. I am tired. I am sore. I am sweety. I am in so much pain. I just can't take it anymore. I can't take anymore pain. I am about to pass out it hurts so bad." a tear rolls down my cheek and he wipes it away. "It'll be fine. Your gonna make it through this. I promise." I grab onto his hand as another contraction starts. "Ugh!!!" he gets close to me. "Just focus on the sound of my voice. Okay you can do that." I squeeze his hand tighter as I try not to focus on the pain. It passes soon and I sigh with relief. The doctor comes in and checks out everything. "Okay Maya. Your at 10 centimeters. Lets get you to a birthing room." panic is in my eyes but Josh gives my hand a squeeze. I'm having a baby.