Do I like Lucas? I don't know. maybe I do. I know I have feelings towards Lucas. But do I really like him? Since the day I met Lucas it's always been him and Riley but suddenly it's him and I. What if that's not what I want? What if I think I like him when I really don't? Then I would end up hurting him. Something I don't want to do. But if I really do like him that could hurt Riley and I don't want to hurt her either. Why does all this have to be so confusing. I figured since I got pregnant it would be as simple as Josh and I dating then see where that leads in the end. But now Josh and I aren't even together, I kissed Lucas, and I could have possibly ruined a friendship if I do like him. Lucas has said many times now that he likes me but I've yet to say it to him. Do I really want to say it to him? When he kisses me I feel something different. Something that I've never felt when it comes to him. It scares me. And when I kissed him the other day I did it because I wanted to. I wanted to see if that feeling was still there. And it was. If I do like him should I even give him the benefit of me telling him? He's caused a lot of trouble for me. Maybe he doesn't deserve me. Or maybe I don't deserve him.
It's Saturday a couple weeks later and my mom is already gone by the time I get up. so I get dressed eat breakfast and then sit on the couch and watch some TV. as I'm sitting there I hear a knock at the door before I can get up I hear the person speak. "It's me Lucas." I yell back. "Come on in its unlocked." he opens the door and walks in. He smiles at me. "Hey." I smile back. "Hi. Whatcha doin here?" he sits down in the chair next to the sofa. "I wanted to talk to you." I get comfortable. "About?" "You and me." I shrug. "You and me? There isn't a you and me to talk about." he sits back. "Why did you kiss me?" my gaze drops down to the ground. "I um....... I don't know." he shrugs. "Do you like me?" I sigh. "I don't know." he throws his hands in the air. "What do you know Maya?!" he then moves and sits next to me. "I just need to know where we stand." where do we stand? Why is he asking me!? I don't know anymore then he does. But I've got to give him something. "Lucus I......."
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FanfictionSo this is how it happened. "Please don't make me go home." he sits back down. "Okay. I won't." he wrapped me in his arms and then kissed me on the top of my head. When I looked up at him I saw a look of love in his eyes that I've never seen before...
