Why Him?

The end of our beginning

     I wake up early the next morning and quickly get ready to leave. We arrive at the hospital and before we can get into the room a nurse walks over to us. "Your Maya Hart and Joshua Matthews correct?" we nod and she continues. "I have some news for you." I look over at Josh worried then I look back at the nurse. "News?" she nods. "Your baby boy improved remarkably over the night and well we want to keep him for the rest of the day to make sure he's stable but if everything stays stable then you'll be able to take him home tonight." joy spreads across my face. "Really!? We can bring him home!?" she nods. "Yes if everything goes smoothly today." my smile tries to get bigger but it can't. Me and Josh walk into the incubator and I'm relieved when I don't see him hooked up to anything. Its just him. Lying peacefully. Josh smiles at me. "See. Hope works." I look over at him. "Hope has nothing to do with this Josh. This luck. A miracle. Anything else but hope. Hope is a fantasy." Josh wrinkles his brow. "You don't think having hope works?" I shake my head. "No. All the times that I had hope it ended badly. Hope is just something a child should believe in. Like Santa clause." he gives a faint laugh. "Maya I can assure you that hope is much different from Santa clause." I shake my head. "Not from my point of view. Children believe in Santa clause because he is a symbol of something good. But when they grow up they find out that he's not even real. When children are young they have hope. They have an innocence in them that wants to believe that everything in the world is good. But as they grow older they realize that not everything is good. That hope is just a fancy word for pretend. Pretend everything's okay and it will be? That's my definition of hope. Pretend." he crosses his arms. "Okay so maybe it is a type of child like innocence. But its the part of us that wants things to be okay. Wants bad things to never happen. And it may even be a type of denial in some cases but, I believe that hope can get you through the darkest times. That hope is a glimmer of light in a sea of black. Without it we'd all just be left in the dark." I stay silent as I think about his words. Maybe he's somewhat right. Maybe. But I won't tell him that. Why let him win?

     Its the end of the day and Gabriel did great the entire day. So at 9:08 pm on a Friday evening I walk out of the hospital with my baby boy. The car ride back to Josh's place was a peaceful kind of quiet. And I enjoyed every minute. We get to his place and I lay Gabriel in the crib. He fell asleep in the car on the way here. I get ready for bed then make my way to the couch where I am accompanied by Josh. I look over at him. "This is where it starts hu?" he looks over at me. "Where what starts?" I give a nervous laugh. "Where we officially start our lives as parents." he laughs. "Yeah this is where it starts." "Nothings ever going to be the same again is it?" he shakes his head. "No." I smile. "Good." he then leans in and kisses me.

                         The End

Hey everybody! I just wanted to say thank so much for reading my story and I hope you enjoyed it! I have started writing the sequel to "Why him?" called "You and Me?" and I really want to know what y'all would like to be in the sequel. Whether its a ship you want to read more about or something you want explained. So please comment your idea's here or on the Authors notes part of the sequel! Make sure to check it out!