Why Him?

I'm having your baby

After almost and hour of pushing I feel an instant joy when I hear the sound of a baby crying. The doctor walks over. "Here's your son." I smile as I stare at him. I hold him close but before even a minute goes by they take him from me. I hear the doctor start saying stuff to the nurse. "His isn't steady. Get to an incubator." I begin to panic as I look back at Josh. "What are they doing? Where are they taking him? Is he alright?" Josh seems at panic too but he's trying to hide it. "I don't know. I'll go find out." Josh goes to talk to the doctor and I am moved back to a room.

They get me all situated and then leave me to be. All I can then about is my baby. My mom walks in. "You did it. Your a mom!" A tear rolls down my cheek. "Something's wrong. They took him away after saying something about his breathing not being steady. Josh went to go see what was wrong but he hasn't come back yet." she stopped walking and just stood there for a moment. "I'll go see if I can find Josh. See he found out anything." she gave me a fake smile. "Don't worry everything's going to be fine." My mom leaves the room. A minute later I see out the curtain of my window into the hallway. There stands my mother and Josh. He was crying. Something I have never seen him do before. After a moment my mom walks back in and sits on the bed next to me. "Okay. Your baby was taken to an incubator and was put on a ventilator. Now its very common for premature babies to be in an incubator. So it just means that they need to finish growing." she is trying her best to make it seem like its no big deal. But it is. "Where's Josh?" she motions to the hallway. "He's out there. He was having a hard time with this and didn't want you to see him like that. He didn't want to upset you." I give a small smile. "Can you get him please." she nods then goes back out of the room. Josh then walks over to my bed. "Whats up?" I turn my head to him. "I have three rules. Sit down, be quiet, and hold my hand." he gives a small smirk then sits down. He grabs my hand tears start rolling down my face. I lay my head back and close my eyes. I turn onto my side and barely open my eyes. I see Josh with his face in his hand. I close my eyes again and cry myself to sleep.