Part of Your World:A Chris Evans FanFiction

39.

 A week later I was lying in bed at home, drinking tea and smoking a joint. East was curled up at my feet and I was watching 'London' on the TV. Gaby knocked on my bedroom door, and poked her head in.

"Whatcha doin'?" She asked.

"Nothing really. I'm certainly not watching movies with my boyfriend in them because I miss him." I laughed.

Gaby laughed and crawled into bed next to me, I put my arm around her and she rested her head in the crook of my arm and took my joint from me.

"Isn't that his ex?" She said, holding a lung full of smoke.

"Yeah, and there's heaps of sex scenes in this. It's awesome."

She shook her head and laughed at me.

"What's up with you?" I asked her.

"Nothing, just feeling lonely I guess. Richard keeps texting me. I don't want to change my number, but I feel like I'm going to have to." She sighed.

"He's a cunt." I growled.

"I feel like I'm going to be single forever, Emmy. Like he was the best I can do. And I don't want that. So I'm just going to die alone with cats."

I giggled. "You don't even have any cats."

"That's worse, I don't even have any cats." She groaned.

"Gabs, you're like the most beautiful, awesome person I know. You are not going to be alone forever. You'll always have me."

She squeezed me, and I wrapped both my arms around her. We sat like that, watching the film and passing the joint back and forth.

"Emmy?" Gaby said.

"Mm?" My head was fuzzy and I felt warm and sleepy.

"How come you never hit on me?"

I pinched the bridge of my nose. "I think I'm too stoned to have this conversation." I said.

"But seriously?"

"You're straight, Gaby."

"But you didn't know that."

I shook myself, trying to clear my head. "Gabs, I was dating Chris when we met. I know we hadn't really been going out long, but it was something I was excited to explore. I can absolutely guarantee you though, had I met you first, I would not have responded to his flirting. I'd probably still be pining over you and trying to have you not realise that I was in unrequited love with you right now."

I took a deep breath. "You know how people talk about soul mates? Like you only have one, and you have to find that one person to be happy? I don't think that's true. I think maybe there are lots of people who can fit that role. Maybe some are only your soul mates for a little while. Like for that brief period in your life that person was exactly who you needed. And then some are more permanent, and just complete who you are, make you a better person. Maybe there are some you never even get to meet, and there is a part of you that you never quite complete. But I do honestly think you are my soul mate, Gabs. I think we were supposed to meet and be friends. We were made for each other. I think Chris is my soul mate too, but for a different part of me. And while on a logical level I believe that destiny is complete bullshit, I feel like I met Chris first because if I hadn't I'd be missing a part of myself right now. And think about it, how come I met Chris first? We work together. In the same building, on the same floor. We share a lab. Why did it take a month to meet you? Why was it a week after my first date with Chris? That's weird right? Part of me thinks it was so I wouldn't miss out on having both of you in my life."