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~Jace's P.O.V.~
"Jace,what is this?" Ethan asks.
"What's what?" I ask looking up at him.
I see him holding my diary.
Oh my god.
His face is practically red as an apple,as he reads the latest entry in my diary. I get up from my bed and practically jump to him. I try to take it from him, but he holds it above my head. I jump and he moves his arm.
This is my worst fear. He knows. I can't deny my infatuation with him,because he sees it in my handwriting.
I never thought that I would feel so embarrassed in my life,but I am. I can feel my heart beating out of my chest. My anxiety is at an all time high. I give up, and I sit back down on my bed.
The bed sinks down, and I watch as Ethan continues to read my diary. His face seems to enjoy the little entries that I wrote about him.
He flips each page, and his smile grows brighter with each one. He finally closes the notebook, and hands it back to me. He sits down next to me and puts his arm over my shoulder. His touch causes me to tense up a little.
"So" His voice trails.
"So." I say.
"Why didn't you tell me, you liked me?" He asks.
"I don't know. Fear, I guess." I say softly.
"There's nothing to be afraid of." He says.
By this point,my heart is in my socks. I don't want to have a conversation, with the love of my life who just so happens to have a girlfriend. I don't want to seem like the pathetic girl in the romance movies.
"Yes there is ,Ethan. I'm afraid to see you everyday, I'm afraid to look at you, I'm even afraid that you're here right now. There's so much to fear when it comes to you, because I can't express how I feel." I say.
"Jace, I never knew how you felt until now. How do you expect to conquer your fear, if you let it control you?" He asks.
"That's what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid that I'll like you forever, and you'll be happily married to Ashton." I say.
"You don't have to worry about that. To be honest, Ash and I haven't been seeing eye to eye lately. She thinks I have eyes for someone else,which I do. But I never noticed until now." He says.
"Who?" I ask.
In the back of my mind I know he won't say me, but there's a little piece of my body hoping that he will. He already knows that I like him, so there's no going back and telling him that I made it all up.
Plus, I hate lying, so lying to Ethan wouldn't work.
"Uhh..you don't know her." He says.
I can feel my heart break. I can feel the tears start to well up in my eyes. I have to get Ethan out, before I have a major break down.
"I think you should go." I say softly.
"I thought we were gonna work on the project?" He asks.
"I don't feel too well." I say, as my voice cracks.
He gathers his things, and lets himself out of my room. He closes the door, and the first tear fall down my face. The burning sensation of the tears were making my internal pain even worse. All I can think about is Ethan.
Why me?
Why did I have to be the high school cliche of the girl who never had a chance?
I continue to cry, but my bed room door opens. I quickly wipe away my now obvious trickle of tears, and see Luke.
Luke and I have a weird relationship. Yeah he's my brother, but he's also my best friend in the entire world.
My mom and dad say that's it's unnatural for siblings to be as close as we are, but it's always been that way. We've been attached at the hip, ever since we were born.
"What's wrong, Lambie?" He asks.
Lambie is his nickname for me, because my favorite childhood song was Mary had a little lamb.
"Nothing." I say.
"Why are you crying? Do I have to hurt someone?" He asks.
"No, Luke, but thanks for asking." I say.
"No thanks necessary. I'm like big brother of the year." He says.
"You're 15 minutes older than me." I say.
"I popped out of mom first so that makes me older, but back to why you were crying." He says.
"I said it's nothing." I say.
"Your eyes wouldn't be as red as a strawberry, if it's "nothing"." He says.
I sit up on my bed, and face him.
"Fine, if you must know, Ethan read my diary." He says.
"That's it?" He chuckles.
"And he found out that I have a huge crush on him, and when I asked him who he liked, he said someone else." I say.
"Well, if he can't see how great my little sister is, then you shouldn't sweat it. He's not worth your time, Lambie. And if he does bring it up around anyone, deny the fuck out of it." He says.
I laugh, and wipe my tears away.
"Thanks, Squirt." I say.
"No problem, kiddo." He says.
"What did you come in here for, in the first place?" I ask.
"To tell you that Ethan wanted me to give you his number, for you guy's project. You don't have to take it if you can't bear your emotions right now." Luke says.
"I'm an 17 year old young woman, 18 in five days. I think I can handle rejection." I say, putting on a front.
He hands me the slip of paper,with Ethan's number on it. I stuff it into my pocket, and Luke walks out of my room.
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Dear Diary,
Yesterday was bad. Even though I tried to be "strong" in front of Luke, my feelings are still crushed. I hate lying to Luke, or anybody in general. I have to find out who the other girl is. I already have Ash keeping me from him, I don't need some other girl to swoop in an take my man. My mom has always told me, that if I want something I have to go and take it. I want Ethan so badly. He's more than just a pretty face to me. It seems like every time I take a step forward to make my move on him, something happens and I get sent back one billion steps. When will it be my time? When will I have my happy ending? I don't want to hurt anyone in the process of me finding happiness, but I love Ethan Dolan
~Jace~
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