The fact that Ethan actually thought that I was naive enough to believe him,was hilarious to me. He should know better by now,not to fuck with me. Like he said I'm one of the smartest girls he knows,so I expect him to know. I would never believe anything that he says from now on. No matter if he told me he's telling the truth. Once a liar,always a liar in my eyes.
To me Ethan has always been an asshole,but that was only because he was my nemesis. Now he's a bigger one,because he decided to fuck with my life. No matter how hard I try to be mad at him,I can't now. I was dumb enough to get my heart involved in this bundle of bullshit.
I look at the time on my phone and see its 6:19 a.m. Today's debate was if I was going to school or not. I had already skipped yesterday,so it would seem a little suspicious if I were to skip today. I decide to go,but facing Ethan was what is holding me back the most. My mind is telling me I should hate him,but it's a whole other story when it comes to my heart.
I had to hurt him in some way. Not because he hurt me,but I want him to truly suffer at my hands. So,if it meant stooping to levels this low,then my new name might as well be Petty Wap.
I get out of bed and head to my bathroom. I take my shower listening to the water droplets hit the shower floor. It's almost calming in a sense. I finish the shower and step out of my bathroom. I look in my closet for my fashion choice of the day.
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I put my hair in a style I've never tried before,but to my surprise it was kind of cute.
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I thought that I looked cute,so I decide to take a picture of myself. I pose for the camera and upload the photo to instagram. Within a matter of minutes likes and comment notify my phone. Many of the comments saying 'goals' or 'babe', but on comment in particular caught my eye.
Derek_Luh: all I did was blink smdh
Derek is one of the people I care about the most. He is always there when I needed him,but ever since his music career has taken off we haven't talked much. I laugh at his comment and reply back to him.
