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~Leila's P.O.V.~
I sat across from the man, that has caused me so much pain for the past couple of weeks. I haven't seen or talked to him in person since the night I went out with Corine. He looks restless. Like he hasn't gotten any sleep at all. He holds something in his hands. A small sheet of paper. It looks like the note I wrote him. I have no idea why he brought it,but I am willing to know why. I still love him,but he makes me want to leave. All he has to do is love me and I'll be his.
"You mind telling me why we're here?" I ask.
"Leila, I know what I did to you was wrong. I know how hurt you were and I'm sorry." Ethan says.
"No,you don't. You don't have any idea how I feel. Yes, you are wrong,everything you did to me is wrong. You might be sorry,but that means absolutely nothing to me." I say.
"Just give me another chance." He says.
"I want to give you another chance,but I can't trust you right now. Ten times out of nine, I know you're lying but nine out of ten I know you're trying. I trying to be fair. I know you're try to be there and to care." I say.
"I want to be there for you. I care about you so much and if I lost you I don't know what I'd do." He says.
"What will you do to show me that you care? You're always caught up in your permanent emotions and all the I give you goes unnoticed. It just floats in the air. Ethan, I love you. You know that,but do you know that you're my lifeline. I don't know,it just feels like you're trying to kill me." I say.
"Tell me what I need to do." Ethan says.
"Tell me what did I do wrong? Was I not enough for you? What did she do that I didn't?" I ask.
He stays quiet.
"I thought I was unworthy. I denied myself heaven. I consider myself undeserving. I'm afraid of love. I don't think that someone like you can love someone like me." He says.
"Why? I married you. That's all the proof you need. If you were feeling this way,why didn't you tell me. Marriage is a partnership and I can't win at living if you don't at least cooperate with me." I say.
"I know that now. It doesn't give an excuse for what I did to you. Just name anything you want and I'll make it happen." He says.
I think for a little while,but something finally comes to mind.
"I want to talk to her." I say.
"Who?" He asks.
"Becky."
*****
~He bathes me...
...until I forget their names...and faces.
I ask him to look me in the eye when I come...home.
Why do you deny yourself heaven?
Why do you consider yourself undeserving?
Why are you afraid of love? You think it's not possible for someone like you.
But you are the love of my life...love of my life...the love of my life...the love of my life.
~ Warsan Shire
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Hey!!!
This is the continuation.
What do you think?
Peace from the world beyond✌️👽
