Friends From The Past

Chapter 17: Sad Song

(Song of the Chapter: Sad Song 💔)
P.S: I highly recommend listening to the song!)
My reflexes kicked in and I grabbed ahold of Lisa's wrist before she could fall and hit the hard gravel beneath her. She was panicking like crazy, I mean I would've too.
Lisa: Oh my gosh, oh my gosh! I'm gonna die!
Y/N: Stay calm, Lisa. You're not dying on me!!!
I was lying on the ground, scrunching my face together, squeezing every muscle in my body in attempt to bring her back to the surface. My hands were all sweaty, she was slipping through my fingers, and just before she could fall, I grabbed her with my free hand.
Y/N: Work with me, Lisa!
She was crying, I can tell she was so afraid of death while I, I was so afraid of losing her. With all her might, she climbed the cliff and I pulled her up with every bit of strength I had left in me. I pulled Lisa on top of me, embracing her for what seemed like forever. I stroked her hair, my chin nuzzling her head.
Y/N: Shh, you're okay now. . .
Her breathing was so shaky. Pellets of tears dripping onto my neck and trickling down. I just wanted to break down, but I needed to keep it together for Lisa's sake.
Y/N: I'm so sorry, Lisa. . . This is all my fault.
Lisa: Just don't say anything, please.
Y/N: Got it.
We stationed our bodies on the ground. This is how imagined it to be when I got back, except without all the sad and suspenseful events. Embracing Lisa in one arm and Lena in the other, stargazing or watching fireworks. After quite some time, I broke the awkward silence.
Y/N: How'd you know I'd be here?
She looked up at me and smiled.
Lisa: I remembered how much you loved coming here. You said this was your happy place, where sadness never existed. After you left, this became my place. It made me think of you. I'd always come here to relive some of my best memories of you, actually all of them were my favorite. I came here and I'd feel like a part of you was still here, beside me. You never left because you were still here, in my heart.
She made a fist and placed it on her heart.
Y/N: And, you never left mine.
There was another awkward silence. I stared into her eyes and when she caught me, I pretended like I wasn't staring at her at all. Then, when she looked away, I stared back at her. She was too quick for me and looked back at me. I got nervous and looked down. She lifts my head up with the tips of her fingers and softly kisses me. She slowly pulls back. Why'd she stop?
Lisa: I'm sorry. . .
I mumbled underneath my breath as I looked away.
Y/N: I'm not. . .
Lisa: Okay, I lied. I'm not sorry at all.
Realizing what she just said, I stare at her, dumbfounded. She's playing with my emotions. Sometimes enough is enough. Is she truly worth getting my feelings hurt every time? I guess she could see the pain in my eyes.
Lisa: I love you, I really do.
Those words struck me so hard. How dare she say that to me? I'm so confused right now!
Y/N: How could you say that? You love me, but you're also in love with someone else?!? If you love me, Lisa, then choose me, not choose to hurt me every single f*cking time!
Lisa: It's not that simple. . . I can't hurt, Spencer.
Y/N: So, what you're saying is, it's okay to hurt me, but not Spencer?!?
Lisa: I owe him my life, Y/N. He saved me, when I felt so lost. He saved me from this cruel world, where you never existed.
Y/N: But, I'm here now. . . You don't need him, Lisa; you have me! You're killing me, Lisa. I might as well just die right here, right now!
Lisa: I do have you, but now he needs me.
Y/N: Does he Lisa? He seems to be doing fine on his own. But, what about me? Where does that leave me be? I'll just be that lonely and sad person I already am. Help me, Lisa.
Lisa: I don't deserve you. . .
Lisa came off from on top of me and stood up. She started walking away, but I got in front of her, blocking her from leaving.
Y/N: Don't do this to me. I'm begging you! I'll go on my knees if I have to. Please, don't leave me hanging like this! I care about you, Lisa!
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
She grabs my shirt and draws me to her. Softly, planting her lips onto mine. How speechless I was. She pulled away, I didn't want her to.
Lisa: That's all you get. Consider that as my goodbye. You'll find someone who deserves you, someone who'll give you what you're looking for, love and happiness. All I'm going to do is hurt you and cause you more pain than you already have.
She placed her hands on my cheeks.
Lisa: I want you to close your eyes. . .
I started tearing up, my tears were falling.
Y/N: But, I don't want to. . .
I place my hands on hers which were still on my cheek. She moves her hands away and covers my eyes with her hands.
Lisa: Count to three.
Y/N: No, please.
She counts up to three slowly.
Lisa: One... two... three...
Her hands slip away from my eyes. My eyes are still shut. When I opened them, she was already gone. An empty pit feeling in my heart. I slumped down to my knees. I knew if I ran after her she's just going to end up walking away. The best thing I can do now is let her be and set her free, just like she has set me free of my pain. Isn't this supposed to make me feel better? Why, do I feel like sh*t then?!? I never knew how much I loved her until I let her go. . . . .
Do you think you'll ever move on?
-End of Chapter 17-