Friends From The Past

Chapter 24: Replaying The Past

(Song of the Chapter: Replay 📽🎞 "Zendaya")
Y/N: I need you to leave.
Lisa: Here you go again. Always pushing me away. Can't you see I'm here to help you?
Y/N: Pushing you away? Here to help? Lisa, since I came back, all you've done was push me away and now you're saying I'm pushing you away. That's bullsh*t, Lisa. I just simply stopped trying. It was as easy as that. Now, leave before I call security.
Lisa gave me this agitated stare and walked out. Does it get easier for me seeing people come and go out of my life? I wish I could say it does, but no, it doesn't. Apart of me will never be the same. I'll always feel empty inside like something's missing. Love, love is all that I'm missing. There's only one person I can't stop thinking about. One person that makes my heart stop. One person who can turn that frown upside down. I remember reading somewhere that love was just like a rubber band. If one of us lets go, it hurts the one who still held on. I'm the one person. I'm the one still holding on and it hurts me the most. You have no idea how hard it is for me to force myself to stop thinking about this one person. Sometimes, I wish I never met her. Then, there would be no need to impress her. No need to want her. No need for loving her. No need for crying over her. No need for the heartbreaks. No need for pain or the tears. No need for forgotten promises. No need for all the rejected hugs. No need for crying myself to sleep at night. No need for acting like she cared. No need, for everything she has done to make me feel like absolutely nothing. Countless times I've asked her," What makes you happy." I wanted her to say it was me. It was me who made her smile. But she didn't. And instead it broke my heart. So, please tell me what I'm doing here, if I don't make her happy anymore? So, if she ever loved me, she'd still love me and if she stopped, moved on, she never really did. So, did she ever love me or was whatever we had just a game to her? She's asking me why I pushed her away? I say that maybe sometimes, it's best for you to push someone away. Not because you've stopped loving them, but because you need to learn to stick up for yourself and shield yourself from all the pain. I realized that letting her go also gave her a chance to be happy again, happier than all the sad and exciting times we've shared in the past. I set her just like she'd set me free, but I never really did. I held on and she came back. Does that mean we were meant to be. . . . ?
  Is there a reason why Lisa is back in your life?
                       -End of Chapter 24-