Side by side

26

Jenny's P.O.V

My stomach hurts from nervousness. I'm parking outside Shady Records and I'm honestly so afraid to walk inside. Yesterday I had serious hangovers from alcohol and today I have moral hangovers. I have no idea what the fuck I was thinking and I feel no better than those girls who comes around in the studio. I feel disgusting and I feel like a cheater no matter how ridiculous that sounds. I can't remember much what I said but I remember what I did.

I walk inside and I immediately see Marshall standing there talking with Nickle. Images of Saturday night are reflecting in my head. You see.. what happened here at the studio is far the worse thing I did, what happened in the car is what I'm really embarrassed about.

Flashback

I want more of him.. I can't explain it but I want him to hug me tightly from behind as he did at the studio. I want to feel his lips on my lips again. I look at him, he looks so sexy as he drives his Mercedes with one hand resting gently at the wheel and the other arm resting against the window. Is he embarrassed of what happened in his office? I mean.. I'm not as the other girls he's with so maybe that's why he pushed me away; I'm not his type.

"Are you embarrassed?" I ask now and I'm not even aware that I've said it loud before he looks at me frowning.

"Of what?" He asks.

"About what happened at the studio?" I ask.

"Why wouldI be embarrassed?" He asks confused. I can feel the alcohol tingling in my fingers and my feet.

"I'm not as pretty.."

"What did I say about that in the studio?" He cuts me off. I see an angry face expression on his face.

"You're angry." I can't help but giggle.

"Yeah because I fucking told you not to say that shit Jen. I think you're beautiful and I'm far from embarrassed about what happened. I'm confused but not embarrassed." He says.

"Are you aware that I haven't had sex for over a year?" I ask him. I can feel that I want Marshall right now, God.. I want him. I don't think people have any idea how much you need sex before you haven't had it for a very long time.

"No." he just says.

"I could really use some sex." I mumble and I can hear Marshall chuckling. His chuckles are so sexy! "It's not funny."

"No, sorry." He says.

"I think I have to go home and masturbate." I sigh.

"Okay Jenny! Too much sharing." He says and I look at him. He's still smiling.

"You should smile more." I say. "You have a cute smile."

"Cute?" He asks lifting his one brow.

"You don't like that word?" I giggle.

"No, I'm not cute." He says.

"I think you're cute." I tease him.

"I think you're very drunk." He says. I know but I actually don't think it's that bad.

"Okay Einstein." I roll my eyes which makes him grab my thigh and squeeze my muscle. "Ah!"

"I think you're way too smart right now." He chuckles and let go.

"You think I'm cute." I say and rub the sore spot on my thigh.