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Marshall P.O.V

I hear her walk into the bedroom and close the door. What the fuck is up with her today? I can feel myself getting pissed about her behavior and pissed about the fact that our first weekend as a couple together already starts like this. Why can't she understand that I care too much about her to fuck her raw like I fucked Tammy? I can't explain to her that I used to bruise these girls from having such a hard grip, or explain to her how I just fucked them until they screamed out in pleasure and pain, or explain to her that some of these girls could barely walk out of the studio when I was done with them. It's not how I wanna treat Jenny! Jenny deserves love and affection, not hardcore sex where I only chaise my own desire.
I know bitches loved what I did to them but they were different, I'm not so sure that Jenny can handle this even though she claims it. The problem is she doesn't understand. I don't think she's gonna get off on me shoving my cock down in her throat and fuck her. I don't think she's gonna like that I talk to her the way I talked to those women. I don't think she's gonna like me grabbing her around the throat while fucking her or pull her hair so hard that it gives her a headache.

I get up from the couch as soon as I hear the bedroom door close and I walk into the bedroom to see her laying down on the bed. She doesn't even look at me nor does she say anything.

"Is this really how you want our first weekend as a couple to be like?" I ask her.

"It doesn't have to be." She shrugs referring that I could just give in.

"What the fuck is going on with you today?" I ask her. "Why is it so important to you?"

"Because I want you to give yourself fully." She says. She really doesn't want that..

"Remember how much you hate that rude guy you hear on my records?" I ask and I speak before she can answer. "That's the guy you're gonna experience. A guy who doesn't give a fuck about you or the world."

"I know you care about me." She says. "That's the difference Marshall."

"Why do you want it so badly?" I ask.

"Because I wanna see what you hide." Jenny says. "I don't want you to hold back just because you think I can't handle it." Right now I'm so pissed that she won't let it go! I'm so pissed that I'm actually tempted to fuck her just to shut her the fuck up, but I'm afraid that she's gonna feel violated.

"Drop it, Jenny." I say. "Just drop it."

"So you gladly give Tammy what she wants when she wants but when it comes to me.."

"Let me get one thing straight." I cut her off. I don't know if she's just trying to provoke me and trick me into doing this right now, but she's really pushing my buttons in ways that I didn't know she could. "It was when I wanted and I never asked her what she wanted. She was nothing but a fucking object, those women were nothing but a fucking object. Is that what you want to be? A fucking object?"

"I know I wouldn't be that Marshall." She says. "But you don't understand what I'm saying.."

"No you don't understand what I'm saying Jenny!" I cut her off. "I can't believe that we're even having a discussion about this."

"What is it I don't understand?" She asks getting out of the bed now.

"That I'm happy with our sex life and that I won't treat you like that." I say. I can't say that I don't fantasize about fucking her raw sometimes. Like right now where she keeps pushing my anger then I really feel like doing it.

"But you're holding back." She says. "Admit it."

"Sure but that doesn't mean that the desire eats me up inside." I say.