Side by side

25

Marshall P.O.V

Yep.. I differently fucked up. Things has been weird since I almost kissed her. I tried taking Nickle's advice but I can feel how Jenny takes her distance so I do the same. Trust me, I don't want it to be like this but I don't wanna put pressure on her or be pushy. I crossed her line and I wish that I could tell her that I'm sorry, but then we have to talk about what happened and let's face it; that ain't gonna happen. Distance may be good for us because we can't act like that around each other, it sends the wrong signals and it doesn't do any good for me.

Today is the Christmas dinner with the Shady family and most people have arrived except from Emily and Jenny. Why are we always waiting on them? It's every fucking time..

Finally they walk through the front door. Jenny looks so good in her long jacket and red pumps. Her hair is curled and she has a bright ref lipstick on which is just fucking sexy. She takes off her jacket finally showing her dress underneath. I expected to see her in the dress she showed me on the computer, but she's not wearing that one, I wish she would've worn that one because this dress is killing me.

With the low v-neck you can clearly see that she's not even wearing a bra. Her breasts are perfect, so perfect that it makes me wonder if they're fake. Again she still remain to look classy in a dress most girls would look slutty in. Once again I'm gonna feel tortured for a whole night. Tammy ain't even an option this time and neither would I ever call a bitch on a night like this.

"It took you quite some time." I say to them smiling.

"Better late than ugly." Jenny says flashing a smile. But we all know that Jenny can't even be ugly if she tried. She's been walking around in the studio only wearing my t-shirt, wet hair and smeared makeup and she still looked good.

We all sit down and I make sure to sit a couple of places away from Jenny. I ain't gonna risk anything tonight, specially not when people around me are drinking alcohol, specially not when Jenny is drinking alcohol.

"You can't keep treating her like this." Nickle says in my ear.

"Stay out of it." I mumble. Jenny plays the exact same game so I can't see why it's wrong that I'm doing the same? I refuse to look like a fucking fool. Eventually we will forget about my stupid mistake and things will get back to normal.

Paul sits down next to me which is fine, then I can have a prober conversation without someone digging into me and Jenny. Paul doesn't know anything as he isn't much around in the studio, he's only here when I need him, besides that he stays away as he really doesn't have anything to do here.

People slowly begin to drink as we eat and people are talking louder and louder as everybody wants to talk to everybody. I think the only people who really don't speak that much together are me and Jenny. This night would have been much more fun for us a week ago, thinks wouldn't have been so weird then.
I can't help but looking at her though, her laugh and smile fills the whole room. I think the temptation for her has become a lot stronger because I've realized that I can't have her. I could get her into bed if I really wanted but I can't do that man. Jenny deserves much more and she doesn't deserve to be treated as I treat other girls. Jenny deserves a good guy, that means; not me.