Side by side

40

We landed in the US a little over a week ago and we're now in San Francisco. Marshall has preformed 3 concerts after we've been back and they have of course been amazing.

Marshall's kids and ex wife arrived yesterday's morning so I haven't seen much of him, actually nothing at all. He had a day off and now he's gonna preform tonight, so he's gonna spend all his time with them which I perfectly understand.

His daughters are gonna be at his concert tonight and I'm really nervous about meeting them. They don't even know about me and Marshall because there's nothing yet and I don't even know if there's ever gonna be anything.

"You miss him." Emily says to me as she sits down next to me on the couch in her suite.

"It's terrible." I say. Me and Marshall talks together everyday and now his main focus has been his family, which I understand but I really miss him. It's terrible to feel that way because he's not mine, so it sucks to feel that way about someone you don't "own".

"Yeah, I know." She laughs.

"I don't know what's going on. I was with Kyle for so many years that I totally forgot how it is to date and how terrible it is to be in the state of not knowing." I admit.

"It drives you crazy not to have control and not to feel safe." Emily says knowing me well.

"Exactly." I say. "I think I'm gonna bring Tyler with me tonight." I change the subject. I've brought Tyler with me so many times before so it's nothing new. Tonight he'll maybe be able to distract me a little from the situation.

"Do that. It's so nice to have him with us backstage." Emily says. Everyone seems to love Tyler but hey, what's there not to love? He's my boy and he's a wonderful kid.

"I will." I say.

...

I walk into the big arena where the concert is gonna be tonight. There's a lot that we need to get ready. Marshall is gonna be here in a few hours to warm up and run things over on the stage, so we have a lot of work to do all of us. Tyler is really no burden to have with me because he's very obedience. He's usually really good to help or else he's just doing his own thing.

First I walk around to check if anybody has everything under control, which they of course have and then I walk out backstage where I get everything ready.

"How is everything going?" Marc asks when he walks into Marshall's dressing room where I'm about to put some soft drinks on the table.

"Good." I say smiling and I now see Marc looking at Tyler.

"What's up batman?" Marc asks Tyler.

"Hi." Tyler says.

"Are you having fun? Or do you wanna go with me for a round, if it's okay with your mom?" Marc asks and both Marc and Tyler looks at me for approval now. Like I said; people around here adores Tyler and they sometimes watch after him or take him with them to help me a little.

"Go ahead." I approve.

"Cool." Marc says and sticks out his hand to Tyler and he takes it and go with him. Him and Marc have done that quite often on this tour so I'm really okay with it.

...

Everything is done and set and Marshall is gonna arrive any minute. Tyler is back with me and he had some fun hours with Marc. Suddenly the door swings open and Marshall walks in with his young daughters and with Kim walking in at last. There's no doubt who Hailie is and I recognize her right away, she really looks like Marshall. I already know that the oldest one is his niece Alaina and that the youngest one is Whitney. I just continue working and stay professional because I'm gonna go over there. Me and Marshall haven't really talked about it, so if he wants me to say hi to his girls then he's the one who needs to take the first step.