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Marshall's P.O.V

I've slept like shit and I've texted her several of times but I found out that she's turned off her phone when I called her. I think I pretty much screwed up between us. Jenny doesn't put up with bullshit and yeah.. let's face it; I really fucked up. How was I suppose to know that she went to high school with that motherfucker?
Jenny is a beautiful woman and I guess I'm scared that other men will snatch her from me. I trust Jenny, it's just other men I don't trust. I trust her but there'll always be that little voice in my head that tells me that she can do better and that she will. I'm damaged by my past, I'm damaged by the women who fucked me over and I'm damaged by all the bullshit I've been through. I've never had much faith in women and it probably started with my mom. I love my mom and I know she regrets her mistakes so I ain't gonna bad mouth her, but yeah she's one of the reasons why I have this hatred and mistrust in women. Me and Kim's relationship has also damaged me and I bet that it has also damaged her, God knows I've been no saint.
I just really hope that I get my chance to explain all this to Jenny and that she'll forgive me.

I grab my phone and I hope to see a text or just something from Jenny, but there's nothing. I need to talk to her.

To; Jenny
Please Jenny talk to me

But still no answer. I get out of bed and quickly get into some clothes before I walk down to her hotel room. I knock on the door many times before I then hear footsteps walking gently towards the door. Does she know I can hear her? The footsteps reach the door but I also hear them back away from the door again. She knows it's me.

"Please Jenny, don't do this." I beg her. "I heard you, please open the door." But she doesn't open but she doesn't move either. "Please just let me explain. I'm sorry alright?" But she still doesn't open and I just have to realize that she ain't gonna open.

I walk back to my suite and I wanna destroy this whole suite in anger. I'm so fucking pissed at myself for being such a dick to her.

I grab my phone and write her another text.

To; Jenny
I'm sorry I was such a dick, please just let me explain.

I get ready and then I drive to my Shady Records studio here in NYC where I have to meet Joe. I'm actually in no mood for this today but my time here in New York is short so I gotta stick to the schedule.

...

"You're still dating.. what's her name? Jenny?" Joe asks when we've sitting here producing for about two hours.

"I think I fucked that up last night." I sigh as I still adjust some sounds on the beat.

"What?" He asks confused. "How come?"

"I saw her with some motherfucker in the bar who paid her a drink and I jumped to a stupid conclusion." I tell him shaking my head like I can't even believe it myself.

"Yo, you're just marking your territory. Ain't nothing wrong with that." Joe shrugs.

"Jenny ain't one of them girls that likes that." I say. Many girls actually like when a man gets jealous, it reminds them just how important they are to the guy. "Jenny is very loyal and she doesn't like not to be trusted or get her loyalty questioned."

"Don't you just think she needs some time dawg?" Joe asks.

"She won't even talk to me man." I sigh. "She won't answer my texts and she won't open the door."

"Well, I hope she just has to cool down." Joe sighs.

"Me too man." I say. I grab my phone again hoping that she has answered but once again.. nothing.