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I arrive to the hotel and I almost run up to her room and I don't even know why I'm in such a fucking hurry. I knock on her door and I'm so fucking nervous for some reason.

Jenny opens the door and I can see how exhausted she is. It's obvious that she's been crying because her eyes are so swollen.

"Hey." I say.

"Hi." She says and takes a step aside so I can walk in. She closes the door behind me and I turn around and look at her. She's standing there in her sweatpants and a tank top. She looks good no matter what she's wearing. "Did you have fun in the studio?"

"No, there was too many people today." I say and she just nods as she looks down. "I'm glad you texted me."

"You are?" She asks making eye contact with me.

"Yeah." I say.

"Marshall." She begins. "I don't know what to do here." I can hear her voice shake and I just wanna hug her, calm her down, you know?

"Me neither." I admit.

"I really thought we had something good going on." She says looking down again now.

"We had." I say.

"But I don't know what to do." She says and she looks at me now. Her eyes are building up water and it kills me. "I wanna stay at Shady Records but it scares me how this has developed and how it has had an influence on our work situation."

"I know." I say as she's right.

"This.. this is messing me up." She now breaks and I hug her pulling her head into my chest.

"Hey." I try to calm her. "Tell me what's going on in your head."

"I'm in love with you." She cries into my chest. "I want you but it scares me."

"Why?"

"Because it has appeared to me how much you can hurt me." She cries and I take her face in between my hands and forces her to look at me.

"I won't hurt you again." I make it clear to her. "Believe that."

"I want to.."

"I've been so fucking miserable without you Jenny." I cut her off. "Seeing the tears on your face right now fucking kills me because I know I've caused them." She doesn't say anything and I don't blame her. I'm not expecting her to say anything. "There was this bitch at Dre's studio today who flirted with me and all I could think about was, how she wasn't you and that you're the only one that I want." Jenny now takes me by surprise and kisses me. I'm confused but I gladly kiss her back. I push her by the small of her back closing the space between us as I want her close. We share a long kiss and when Jenny pulls away then she hugs me instead. "I'm confused now."

"So am I." She mumbles into my neck.

"You have to give me some more than that." I say softly.

"I can't." She says.

"You're killing me right now." I whisper and she doesn't say anything. "Can I kiss you?"

"Yes." She says as she pulls her head away from my neck and I connect our lips again. Fuck, I've missed this! I've missed her soft lips on mine and I've missed her being close to me. This girl is seriously fucking with my head right now. She wanted to talk and now we stand here kissing. I don't know what to do with myself right now. I would normally have make up sex with every other girl in this situation right now but I know that it ain't how Jenny wants it.