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Jenny's P.O.V

I've been doing nothing else but crying the whole night. The thought of seeing him at work today is not something I look forward to. I can't believe that I thought he was a good guy, I can't believe it didn't took him longer to call Tammy. I can't stand to look at him anymore and I don't even think I can work with him anymore. How could he hurt me like this if he just cared half as much as I care about him?

I literally look like shit today, dressed in some jeans and a loose tank top, messy bun and no makeup. I don't wanna try to impress anyone and especially not Marshall. I don't wanna wear makeup because I'm sure that I'm gonna cry today.

I walk into Shady Records and I hear noise from the common room, but as I walk through it then it becomes silence. I don't even wanna look to see who's here, I just wanna hide in my office and I already look forward until this day is over.

I sit down at my desk in my office and I really pray that Marshall doesn't try to seek contact with me today. I can't handle the thought of having a conversation with him. I can't even stand to look at him so how should I be able to have a conversation with him?

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I've been in my office for the whole afternoon when it suddenly knocks on my door. The worse part is that I recognize Marshall's knock so I don't even say anything. Marshall opens the door and I don't even look up.

"You want some lunch?" He asks me.

"No." I give him a cold answer and I hear him close the door behind him. Just get out!

"Can we talk?" He asks.

"No." I give him a cold answer again.

"Please." He begs.

"Marshall, I don't even wanna look at you so how the hell do you expect me to have a conversation with you?" I ask still not looking at him.

"We're working together and we're gonna work in LA next month so I'd really prefer that we could work together." He says. We have some meetings in LA next month and I can now feel that it's not something I can do. It's maybe easier for him since he's not the one who's hurt. I really can't do this.

"I can't do it." I say and begin to pack my things. "I can't work for you anymore."

"Wow wow wow stop." Marshall says which makes me stop and look at him. This is the last conversation that I'm gonna have with him, so I wanna look him in the eyes now. "I know that you're angry and disappointed but please don't quit Jenny. I need you around."

"I can't Marshall." I say and I now feel the tears build up in my eyes. "I can't stand to look at you everyday."

"Yo.." He says walking closer to me.

"Don't." I stop him as I don't want him closer to me.

"Why don't you work home until we're traveling to LA so you can get a break from me." He suggests. "I promise I won't contact you. Paul and you can talk if there's a problem." Does he really think that everything is fine just because I don't see him for a month?

"Do you really think that I'll stop feeling this way just because I don't see you for a month?" I ask like he's stupid.

"Do you think I do?" He asks and I can't help but laugh about the irony of him claiming that he feels anything for me after what he did. "Don't you think I feel shit about what I've done? Don't you think for one second that this ain't hard for me Jenny."

"Well, why don't you call Tammy then?" I can't help but provoke him. "I bet she'll make you feel better."

"I guess I deserved that one." He sighs.

"You really did." I agree.

"Will you please just work at home until the trip and then go with me?" He asks and just as I'm about to speak then he speaks instead. "You can quit after that but just at least try."

"Fine." I say in an irritated tone. I leave the office not saying another word to Marshall and I walk out trough the common room where I suddenly hear Emily's voice.

"Hey, Jenny wait." She says but I just walk out of the door and as I walk over to my car then I hear the door burst open. "Hey Jenny, what the fuck?" She asks angrily and I hear her footsteps across the parking lot.

"Sorry, I just had to get out." I say and look at her.

"Yeah, I understand." She says. "I don't know what the fuck is wrong with him."

"I don't wanna talk about it." I say before she goes any further with this subject.

"Okay." She seems understanding. "We should do something then, you know.. to get your mind off it."

"Like what?"

"Spending some money." She smiles. "New clothes are the best for a broken heart." It's true though.

"Let's do it." I say and Emily's smile become bigger. I just need to get out and get my mind off this.

Me and Emily go out shopping and I spend money like a crazy person on new shoes, new clothes and makeup. It's like I have a need to be a whole new person. Naive Jenny is not who I wanna be.

I have no idea what to do or tell Tyler. He looks up to Marshall and he doesn't know that Marshall was more than a friend, but how do I explain him that he doesn't come around anymore?

Me and Emily end on a cafe where we grab something to eat and Emily doesn't say a word about the whole situation, but I actually need to talk about it with her because she knows Marshall so well. I need answers and I don't want them from Marshall's lying mouth.

"How long has Marshall known Tammy?" I ask Emily.

"I don't know.. probably a year or something." Emily shrugs.

"I think he's in love with her." I say as it would explain why he always seeks for her whenever. Emily almost spits her food out of her mouth as she laughs.

"Absolutely not." She laughs. "He doesn't treat girls like that when he's in love with them."

"Then how does he treat them?" I ask.

"Like he treated you." She says. He has a weird way of showing it.

"I can't really see the difference." I say. He treats me like shit and he apparently treats Tammy like shit.

"I can't explain why the fuck he did what he did Jenny, he was hurt and he thought it was completely over between you, but he fucking cares about your ass and he would never hurt you intentionally." Emily says but it's all bullshit to me.

"But he did." I say. "He admitted to Nickle that he misses Tammy and that I was no near like her in bed. He said that he couldn't give himself fully with me."

"Because he's afraid to hurt you Jenny." She says. "Look, I'm not trying to justify anything but he probably miss the sex with Tammy somehow because there was no limits. He could do whatever that pleased him to her and she never complained, but that doesn't mean that wants all that over you. Don't you even think for one second that Marshall would give up what the two of you have for a whore like Tammy." But he kinda did. Him having sex with Tammy destroyed our future together.

"But he did Emily." I make it clear to her.

"I know." She sighs.

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