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Marshall's P.O.V

Once again things are damn awkward between me and Jenny. It's such a fucking rollercoaster lately! Don't get me wrong, I get why she's hurt and why she's pissed with me but we're never gonna solve this shit if she ain't gonna break down that wall she has build against me. I don't even know what the fuck happened last night, or yeah.. I know she got pissed when I wanted to talk even though I promised her not to, but the conversation smoothly went on to that so what was I suppose to do? She admitted that she needed some time and I can feel that she misses me, but we ain't got much time left to at least becoming friends again. Why can't she fucking quit that new job? She should stay at Shady Records cus that's where she belongs.
And what the hell happened on the couch last night? We were having fun and we were laughing and then the next minute she becomes so hostile! I don't get her man.

The last meeting of the day is now done and we walk out of the building still not saying a word to each other. I'm heading over to Dre after this and I know I'm gonna have a hard time concentrating cus of all this.

"Jenny, can we talk?" I ask as we head out of the building and she just stops up and looks at me. "I wanna know what's going on in your head. I know that I was a little pushy last night but it ain't like you to tick off like you did." Jenny never reacts like that just cus she finds me irritating.

"I guess I'm just lost Marshall." She sighs. "I don't know what to do with myself anymore." She begins to walk away from me and I know she wants to walk away from this conversation. We're still on private - and closed property and I don't want her to walk away like that, cus once we get out of here then I can't just follow her as fans will come up to me.

"Yo don't walk away from me." I say as I follow her. "I just wanna get you Jen. I just wanna know what's going on." Jenny now stops up, turns around and looks at me. I can see the tears building in her eyes and I hate it, I hate when she's sad.

"I'm crushed, Marshall." Her voice is shaking. "One part of me wants you and wants to go back but the other part of me tells me that I shouldn't. I'm so confused right now and it's so easy for you to know what you want because you didn't walk in on me and some guy."

"I know." I say softly as I really understand her. It's easy for me to know that I want her cus she's so perfect to me, she isn't the one who fucked up so I have no reason to be mad at her. "You're right."

"If you know that then why are you being so pushy?" She asks.

"Because we have so minimal time." I explain. "If I knew where I had you and I knew that you would stay at Shady Records then it would be much easier for me to give you the space you need. As soon as you start at your new job then you can just ignore me and I don't stand at chance."

"Who says you even stand a chance now?" She frowns.

"No one." I make it clear to her. "But I want to have you in my life in some way and..."

"You think you can always have what you want." She cuts me off.

"No." I frown. "Listen Jenny, I fucking care about you and I don't wanna lose you. I'm not talking about as a girlfriend or anything, I just don't wanna lose you in all general."

"Me too but then you have to stop being so damn pushy." She demands.

"Then you need to stay at Shady Records." I demand.

"You're out of your mind." She says shaking her head as she begins to walk away from me again.

"Jen, don't walk away from me." I catch up on her now and place myself in front of her. "I can't see the problem with you staying if you want the same thing."