Forbidden Love (Ulquiorra fanfic) [ON HOLD]

Chapter 4

We got back to my room and there was already food waiting for us.

"Looks like we're all set then. Would you like to join me, Ulquiorra?" I turned towards him, he just walked inside of my room and sat down at the table.

"I'll take that as a yes then." He didn't say a word. He just sat back and kept his eyes closed. I sorted out the table and poured out some tea for us. After sorting out the food, I sat down and started to drink the tea.

"Can you tell me now?" Ulquiorra picked up his tea and took a sip of it before looking back at me. I put my cup down and went to sit back on the carpet where the moon light was.

"It was only four months ago that it happened. I had been getting bullied in school by a group of girls and it got so bad that I started to cut my arms, my wrists, everywhere. One day, I was in PE and I had always been given a note from my mum asking if I could sit out but after giving the note to my teacher, she told me that I had to get changed any way so I went into one of the cubicles at the back of the changing room. I started getting undressed and then one of the girls who had bullied me saw me getting changed. She saw all the wounds and scars over my body so she called over the rest of her friends and as soon as I opened the door, they were all standing there and came into the cubicle with me. They started to undress me and then they laughed at me because of what I did to myself. I felt pathetic. They started to take pictures of me and all of the photos ended up on facebook. I hated it. I couldn't bare it anymore. The pain of being bullied and then the pain I put myself through... It led me to try to kill myself so I found some rope and when I got home, I tried to hang myself. It got to about a minute after pushing the chair away and I had almost passed out but when my senses started to go, I felt my body being moved. Someone had taken the rope off me and after that, I passed out. I woke up a few days later to find out that my mum had found me and saved me. She was so scared and as soon as I woke up, all she did was cry. I felt so bad about not thinking about how my friends and family would react to my death that I started to cry with her. She then told me that all the pictures had been taken off facebook and all the girls had been punished for what they had done to me. They had been kicked out of school and my mum took them to court. After that, I've never been able to pick up a knife again but whenever I look at my body and see all of the scars, all I can remember is my mum crying so I've never tried to kill myself again. Are you happy you know now?" My head was bowed and I was crying from everything.

I heard Ulquiorra walk over to me. I looked up and I saw his hand in front of me. I grabbed it and he pulled me up. I stood in front of him and he wiped away my tears. He then pulled me into a hug and I hugged him back.

"I'm so sorry. I wish I could have been there to help you." I could feel his breath against my neck.

"It's okay. It's all in the past now so it doesn't matter." He then pulled away from me but kept his arms around me.

"Do you mind if I see the scars?" He asked.

"Sure.." I then pulled away from him and pulled up my sleeves for him to see some of my scars.

"These are just some of them on my arms. There are more but the worst one's are the one's you see before you." He grabbed my arm and kissed my scars.

"Amber, I really wish there was something that I could do for you." He cupped my face in his hands and rested his forehead against mine.

"You've saved my life. I'm the one that's in your debt. Not the other way around. Speaking of that, we were meant to speak about it." I said.

"We can speak about it another time. Firstly, I still need to tell you about what my master was on about before. After you had been attacked by the soul reaper, there's a reason to why you can't remember anything between the flash of light to when you first saw me before passing out." He stood back from me when speaking.

"And that reason would be?" I asked.

"Because you're like us. You're an arrancar but you're only like that when you're in danger. When you were attacked, your changed into your arrancar form and stopped the attack. You then went after the soul reaper but I had to stop you. Is there anything else that you can remember from that day? Anything after the attack?" I was shocked. I honestly didn't know what to say.

"Amber?"

"I-I don't know." I finally responded.

"Think really hard."

I thought back to what happened. I remember the flash of light and seeing Ulquiorra for the first time. After thinking more, I remember that I was holding something. It felt like... a sword...

"I remember holding a sword.... But how can that be? I was only walking home from school." I was so confused.

"That's when you changed. Your hollow form showed first and then after that, you turned into one of us before releasing your zanpakto." He started to walk towards the table.

"Hollow? Zanpakto? What do you mean?" I asked.

"This is a hollow." I turned around and saw a monster. It looked like a big monkey with a white mask on. It also had a hole in it's chest.

"Where did that come from?!" I yelled.

"Don't worry. It's just a hologram." The image then disappeared.

"O-okay. What's a zanpakto then?" I asked.

"This." He pointed to his sword on his waist. "This is my zanpakto. Everyone has their own and they all have their own names which you will learn in time. For now though, you need to gather your strength for training which will start tomorrow. Get some rest and I will wake you in the morning." He walked back over to me and lead me towards my bed. I sat down and as Ulquiorra turned around, I grabbed his hand and he looked back at me.

"Ulquiorra, can you do me one thing please?" I asked.

"Of course." He turned back and looked straight at me.

"Will you lie with me until I fall asleep please?" I looked up at him and I could tell that my request shocked him. I realized that what I had done was wrong. "Actually, never mind. That was rude of me. Forget I asked." I let go of his hand and lay down on the bed.

"Amber..." I turned to face the wall so I couldn't see him.

"Forget I asked.. I'm sorry..." I closed my eyes and I could feel the bed move. When I turned around, Ulquiorra was lying beside me.

"Ulquiorra!...." He just pulled me into his chest and wrapped his arms around me.

"Go to sleep, Amber. I'll always be here to protect you. No matter what." I looked up at him and he looked down at me. His eyes were so bright and all I wanted to do was kiss him but I knew that would make things awkward.

"Thank you, Ulquiorra..." I put my arms around him and lay against his chest. For once in my life, I felt at peace. I was happy with him, even after everything that had happened today. I was truly happy being with him.