A new beginning

.5.

I walk out of the office of the Director, straight to my locker. When I'm standing in front of it, I'm shocked to see graffiti on it. Not just some graffiti, no the words: "Stupid hooker" "Thick pig" "Loser" and a skull with my name beneath it. They don't want me on this world, I have to be dead according to them.

,,Hey, there you have it fat pig again." I continue to be shocked. I don't dare to turn around and face them. Taylor is right behind me. I knew I wasn't all alone and suddenly it's a lot more crowded. Raymond and Jake stand there now too.

,,Turn around loser." I hear Jake say, but I'm not moving. Maybe they disappear if I do not respond, but I'm wrong. Taylor grabs my ponytail and pull really hard. It seems like my hair from my head is pulled out and the pain goes through my body. I get roughly reversed.

,,Oh my god, you're so ugly! How can you live with yourself, even Shrek is prettier." Raymond give me a push and I'm coming hard on my locker with my back. What is he going to do? He turns the lock of the safe and opens it very hard, so hard that it touches my face. ,,Oh, sorry." He says, supposedly filled with regret. Taylor and Jake grab both one of my arms and hold me. Raymond stands in front of me.

,,I will make you more beautiful Beca." He says and before I know it, I get a fist inside of my stomach, after that a kick on the same place. I want to collapse and hold my belly with my hands, but I can't move because Taylor and Jake continue to hold me. Raymond hit me in my face, a couple of times. The blood is coming out of my nose and my lip is torn, which now blood is coming out too. I get even more hits and kicks, I think I am now covered in bruises. They let go of me and I bag by my legs and fall to the ground.

,,We are the ones that rule this school, you're not rid of us!" I hear Jake yell and then I can't hear them anymore. I look up and check of they are gone, but Jake is coming back. I crawl against my locker and look at him with a scared expression. He gives me one last kick, but so hard that my head is bounced against my locker. I see that everything is becoming blur and not long after that everything is black... 

I shoot up, screaming.

,,What? What's wrong?" Amy jumps out of her bed and looks at me. ,,Beca, what's wrong?" Immediately she sit on my bed and put her hand on my shoulder. My whole body is covered with sweat, but Amy seems not to bother it. ,,Bad dream?"

,,It was a nightmare." I say and burst out in tears. ,,They were awful to me."

,,Who?" Now I see what is happening. I shrug my shoulders and get out of bed.

,,Never mind, I'm going to take a shower."

,,Beca, it's okay. You don't have to be ashamed. Do you get these nightmares often?"

,,No, this was the first time and I think it was the last time too. Don't bother, it won't happen again." I know I'm lying, because the last two months I have this nightmares. Amy nod and then I walk out of the room towards the showers. 

An hour and a half later I'm walking to the big hallway, only to see there nobody. No teacher or students. That's weird. I shrug my shoulders and walk back to the grass. It was nice that Amy held me when I woke up from that nightmare, but I can't tell her anything about it. If I tell someone about my past, I can't stop crying and for all I know is that crying is weak. I don't want to be known as a pussy or the girl who only knows how to cry. I don't want to be laughed out, not again. I have to keep this to myself.

,,Hey Beca." I look up and see Chloe.

,,Um, hi."

,,Is there something wrong?" Chloe sit next to me and I shake my head.

,,No, nothings wrong." I look into her beautiful blue eyes. ,,Forgive me that I ask, but what are you doing here? Don't you have class?"

,,I can ask you the same. Are you truant?"

,,What? No!" Chloe put an eyebrow up.

,,So what are you doing here all by yourself then? Kicked out of class?"

,,No, I'm not that loud in class and you should know. We have the same classes."

,,Believe me, I rather be with you than in one classroom with Mr. Smith."

,,Are you giving me a compliment?" Chloe give me a smile and I get that weird feeling in my stomach again. What does that feeling mean? Do I like her? Am I in love with her?

,,Maybe, you have to find out yourself." And now I'm almost dying. She just give me a wink, not some kind of wink, but a flirty one. ,,So, how does it feel to be a freshman?"

,,Well, pretty intimidating, you know."

,,Got to see Amanda?" I look at her, not exactly sure what she meant by that comment. ,,Official BU rape whistle. Don't blow it... unless it's actually happening."

,,Oh yeah, I keep it in the pocket. Just to make it clear, you didn't come to me to make a small talk right?"

,,Wow, what a confidence."

,,I'm sorry, but I saw you yesterday at the activity fair. You are the Bella's captain and you want me in the Barden Bella's right?"

,,Look at you, Sherlock Holmes. Good job, you got me." A smile appear on my face. Suddenly I discover something. I talk much to this girl. Not my way of connecting, but I kinda like it. I like to talk to Chloe, she have something that relaxes me.

,,It wasn't that hard, you know."

,,Next time, it will be." And again there is a wink.

,,Next time? Are you asking me out?" I say in a flirty tone, I don't know where that was coming from, but I already said it. Lucky I know exactly how to handle this.

,,What? Why would I – No, I'm not."

,,Relax, I'm just kidding." She give me a face. I don't think she expected that from me. ,,You're so easy."

,,Respect the seniors, young lady."

,,You're way to bubbly for a senior." I say and give her a little smile.

,,Thank you for reminding me." She say disappointed. Now I feel bad. I just offended her. Great job, Beca!

,,Oh my god! I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to offend you." I say quickly and I'm deep ashamed.

,,You're so easy." She laugh and give me a smirk.

,,You're a dick!" Chloe shake her head.

,,By the way, you should audition for the Bella's tomorrow."

,,Will you be there?"

,,I'm the captain, of course I will."

,,Do I get any benefits of knowing the captain?"

,,Depends on which benefits you're talking about." And now she smirks and give me a wink. My knees go weak and this feeling doesn't stop. I need to get out of here, to get away from her! This feelings are driving me mad. Abrupt I get up. ,,Where are you going?"

,,Um... Amy, she – um – she needed something from me."

,,Are you coming to auditions tomorrow?"

,,I'll think about it – I don't know – I can't even sing, you know, so basically it's useless." Chloe just nod and after that I run away from her. When I'm out of sight, I take a deep breath. I want to be around Chloe, it feels good to be with her, but this feelings make things way complicated. I look back to Chloe and see her kiss some guy. Who's that? What is he doing with Chloe? Oh my god, what is happening to me? Am I really jealous? I need to cool down a little. Tonight I'm going to take a long shower, so I can rid of this feelings and thoughts.