A new beginning

.43.

.One week later.

,,Good morning miss Mitchell." A doctor is coming in my hospital room with a smile on his face. ,,I have good news. I've talked to your therapist and she told me how great you were doing. How did you think it was going?" I shrug my shoulders.

,,I'm ashamed of m-myself." Damn that stupid stutter!

,,Because of your stutter?"

,,Yeah, it m-makes m-me feel w-weak."

,,It has nothing to do with weakness. It's just a part of you and I'm pretty sure your friends will understand that and listen very good to you."

,,I d-don't w-want to b-be a b-burden to Chloe or m-my friends."

,,I wouldn't be worried about that. Actually I've called your friend Chloe to come and pick you up. She must be here in about ten minutes."

,,No! Please, I d-don't w-want her to see m-me like this."

,,She was happy to see you again. Don't be ashamed miss Mitchell. I hope you enjoying the news that you are allowed to go home?"

,,I love that news, b-but I d-don't like this stutter."

,,That's understandable, you can choose to go to the therapist every week, so you continue to speak better. But that's up to you. Right now, just enjoy the fact that you are allowed to go home."

,,Thank you, I g-guess." The doctor leaves the room and leave me alone again. I hate this stutter and how it makes me feel. How am I suppose to sing with this stutter? How is Chloe going to understand a word I say? How is Jeremy, Nina or Damian going to react? And Miley? She's been here for me every single day and now I'm just a stupid girl with a stutter. A pathetic girl who can't come out of her words and have something that is a reason to bully me again. I'm afraid of the students, I'm afraid of what people will think of me, I'm afraid that people are going to laugh, that they made me do interviews with a lot of talking, were I will made a complete fool out of myself. Then suddenly someone knocks gently on the door. It is soft, but still be heard.

,,Come in." I say without a stutter, but I'm wondering who can be entering this room. The door opens and Chloe's head appears slowly into view. Everything that's been going on between the two of us flashes in front of my eyes and the anger is building up. Chloe just stands by the now closed door and seems nervous. My hands are fists, but I try to control the anger. I give her a sign that she can come closer to me and she does that, with fear in her eyes. When she sits down on the chair next to the bed, she fidgets with her fingers.

,,So, how are you?" she asks my quietly, clearly afraid of my reaction.

,,Fine, I g-guess." And then again there is an awkward silence. I hate this, but I can't help it. I'm still mad at her because of her lie.

,,Becs, I -" I point out my finger to her.

,,I told you that you are not allowed to call m-me that!" I shout out loud. Chloe startled a little. ,,W-why are you even here?"

,,I wanted to see you."

,,Yeah?" I don't believe her, this way or another. ,,I w-was in a coma for one m-month and the m-moment I w-woke up, you left m-me and d-didn't visit m-me once until now! W-why d-did you leave m-me?" I hate my stutter, but I don't care right now. I need to know why she left me. I heard her! Chloe stays quiet. ,,B-because you w-were here b-before. I heard your voice, although I thought I heard it."

,,I have spend every day at your bed when you were in a coma, I was with you when you woke up. The moment I saw your eyes open, I ran out of the room to get a doctor, which I found, but the same doctor, told me that it was not possible for me to be with you for the rest of the week." Now my mind wanders back to the doctors words: I just told them that you can't have visitors for one week, because of your condition... so that was why. I feel bad to be mad at Chloe right now. ,,I'm so happy that you are awake. When you were lying into that coma, I was so afraid of losing you." I see her eyes fill them with tears and I grab her hand.

,,I'm sorry that I reacted so angry, b-but I'm still confused about everything."

,,That's normal, but you're the strongest person I know." Chloe looks at me and smiles. ,,Your body is still recuperating from the accident. You were hit pretty roughly, so it's not weird that your body feels numb, but I'm here to help you through everything."

,,W-why?"

,,What do you mean?"

,,W-why are you w-willing to help m-me? I've b-been angry about your lie and I've pushed you away from m-me w-when you just w-wanted to explain." Now the tears are forming into my eyes.

,,Because I care about you and you are still my best friend."

,,You're sweet."

,,Thanks, but I want to tell you something. It's important." I see her swallow. ,,Beca, I had sex with Tom." And after that a tear escape her eye.

,,W-why are you crying about that? It's normal to have sex w-with him right? He's your b-boyfriend." Chloe shakes her head.

,,No, he isn't anymore."

,,Then w-why d-did you d-do it?"

,,I was at this party and I felt down, so I drunk a view drinks. Then I bumped into Tom. He saw I was upset and talked to me. And well, one thing let to another."

,,B-but w-why d-did you b-break up?"

,,Because I don't love him anymore. Every time I look at him I don't feel the connection we used to have."

,,I'm sorry it had to end this w-way b-between you two." Finally, Chloe is single! Now maybe I can make a move and make her fall in love with me.

,,If there's no love anymore, the relationship dies." Chloe shrugs her shoulders. ,,When are you going to be discharged from the hospital?"

,,I d-don't know. I still can not function properly, so I'll probably still have to stay here. I w-want to g-go home, b-but if that's impossible... w-well, than I have to b-be patience."

,,The doctor told me that you where allowed to go home, what did changed his mind?"

,,I d-didn't talked to him today."

,,Then why are you so negative?"

,,B-because I can't express a normal w-word w-without a stutter!" Now I start crying.

,,Hé, it's okay. Please don't cry." Chloe wraps her arms around me and give me a comforting hug. I put my hands on her back and lay my head down on her shoulder. When I cry less, I get out of her hug and look her in those beautiful blue eyes.

,,Can I cuddle w-with you?"

,,Sure." Chloe lies down beside me and put her arm on my stomach. I slide closer against her side and lay my head into her neck.

,,Thank you." I say against her bare skin of her neck.

,,For what?"

,,For b-being here w-with m-me."

,,I will always be there for you, Beca." I smile and close my eyes. The thoughts that I have Chloe always with me, makes me calm. The warmth of her body against mine right now feels familiar and reminds me of my feelings. I'm in love with Chloe and now that Tom's out of the picture, I might have a chance. And that are the last thoughts I have before I fall asleep into Chloe's arms.