A new beginning

.16.

The next morning I wake up much happier than normal. After months of nightmares, I had a good dream about Miley, my mother, the challenge and Chloe. I can't get that girl out of my head, how hard I try. That only means one thing; I'm really in love with her. I still don't get why she doesn't want to see me anymore. I didn't make any moves towards her. I wanted to kiss her, a view times, but I didn't do anything. Today I want to look if I can reserve the auditorium, so I can sing with nobody around. I don't want anyone to hear me sing when I think of my mother. I'm sure I burst into tears after the song and I do not want anyone to see me when that happens.

,,Becs, you go see Chloe today?"

,,No, we don't talk anymore."

,,Because she had told off?" I nod. ,,Did you already talked to her?"

,,Yeah, she responded very weird. Angry, confused and with a trembling voice. I don't know what's wrong with her."

,,Maybe she likes you."

,,Ha ha very funny! Chloe has a relationship with Tom remember?"

,,So?"

,,So, I don't stand a chance."

,,Maybe she's bisexual and she doesn't know it."

,,She's bisexual, she told me."

,,Why are you saying you don't have a chance? You have to show her that you are much better than Tom."

,,But I'm not. Look at me. I'm not someone you fall in love with, I'm not pretty... I'm just trying to be myself, but that's never good enough."

,,Beca, who did tell you that stuff? You are good enough, you have friends. Jesse, Benji, me and even Chloe. It sucks how she treat you, but you have to be strong and not so insecure about yourself." I feel that I'm tearing up and look away from Amy. A tear escape my eyes and I pray Amy don't notice, but I'm wrong. Of course she notice! ,,Hé, you are an amazing person and I'm glad you are my best friend." Amy pull me into a thigh hug. ,,Do you want to tell me why you are so insecure?" Her eyes find mine and I doubt. I do trust her, but I don't want to bring it up again. I already told Chloe that I've been bullied. I was surprised I didn't cry in front of her. The bullying really marked me for life. Six years is a lot to take. ,,It's okay if you don't want to."

,,Maybe I'll tell you another time." I say and back away from her warm hug. ,,I'm just sad about Chloe. I don't get why she's acting so strange. I didn't do anything wrong."

,,Shall I talk to her?"

,,No, it's too late anyway."

,,What do you mean?"

,,I'm going to Los Angeles."

,,What?!" Amy is in shock.

,,It's only for six months."

,,So you are leaving because of Chloe?"

,,No, it's an education. Did you pay attention in class?"

,,Well, I was kinda talking to Jesse and Benji. What kind of education?"

,,Miley told the class that two students are getting the opportunity to go to Los Angeles with her to sing. One of the two even get to record his or her song."

,,And you want to be one of the two?"

,,Yes, I really love to sing. Maybe I can record "cups"? I like that idea and in Los Angeles I can get the chance to see my sister again."

,,You have a sister?"

,,You don't pay much attention huh?" I laugh a little bit at her comment.