A new beginning

.30.

.Chloe's point of view.

I wake up screaming my lungs out. Every night I dream about the accident and I try saving her, but every time I fail. I look at Beca. Her eyes are still closed and she looks so fragile. Every touch is feeling different. I hold her hand all the time, but it doesn't make her wake up. I grab the storybook again and open the story of "Sleeping beauty". Every day I read one story. Cinderella, Snow White, Beauty and the beast, Peter Pan, Mulan... every story that Disney came up with. I know every story out of my head, but I still cry every time I read those in front of Beca. I wish I could kiss her awake tho, I wish we could continue the way we're suppose to be, but I know it is impossible. I don't even know if she's going to wake up, is she recognize me or the others and of course her state. How is she going to be if she wakes up? Maybe she won't be my Beca anymore, maybe she's still mad at me, maybe she doesn't want me around. Every thought makes me sad. I've been crying the moment that she was hit by that car. I didn't know I could cry this much. It's impossible to explain true love, because love is an unexpected thing. It can turn the right way, just like the fairy tales, living happily ever after or the wrong way just like now. Life isn't a fairy tale and I keep on saying that to myself. Nina is ten, she just wants to make me happy. It's adorable how much she likes me tho and I like her to. I only have one brother and I love him very much, but it's not Nina. She's a happy little girl who loves her big sister very much. Every time she enters this room, she starts crying. Everybody is worried about me and tries to help me, but the only one I want is Beca. I want her protecting arms around me, I want to taste her lips, I want her legs entwined with mine, I want to hear her laugh, I want to hear her voice... O I love to hear her voice again. I miss her so much it hurts. I grab my phone and open my gallery. I know this will probably kill me emotionally, but I need to see her beautiful eyes, her lovely smile and her amazing laugh. I love that picture with that T-shirt. Beca was always sarcastic. She would made the stupidest jokes, who were funny because of her own laugh. "Sleep tight, I bite" is written on her T-shirt and I laugh. Sometimes I steal that T-shirt and wear it. Beca doesn't seem to mind. And that's what she told me when we just came in Los Angeles. Some nights we cuddled and it was the sweetest thing ever.

.Flashback.

It is 1pm and I can't sleep because of this long lasting storm. The thunder and the lightning are hard and it looks like I am taken in a lot of pictures. I'm not afraid of the thunder, but I never heard it this hard. Suddenly a scream lift me up from my bed. Beca! I open my door and run to hers.

,,Beca?" I ask while knocking on her door. ,,Are you okay?" Another light flash is showing and again a scream is coming out of her mouth, what flows into sobbing. O my god! She's crying. I didn't know she was this afraid of the thunder. Beca, the love of my life is crying and I can't come close to her. I shake the thoughts away from being her girlfriend. Right now, I need to comfort her, not flirt with her. ,,Beca, open the door!" I demand.

,,I can't."

,,What do you mean you can't? You locked the door right, so you can open it again and let me in." She cries even harder.

,,I can't." When another thunder strikes down and she screams again, I knock on the door again, but this time louder.

,,Becs, open the door so I can comfort you. I know you need someone right now, please let me in." I can't hear her anymore, so I'm a little worried. ,,Becs, please. I can help you." The door opens and my heart breaks a little. She's afraid as hell, she's been crying her eyes out and she's shaking.

,,I'm so fucking scared." She say. Immediately I open my arms to give her a hug and she walks forward. Suddenly another thunder strikes down with the lightning and Beca literately jumps into my arms. I wrap my arms around her and walk into the room, while trying to calm her down. I lay down, but she hold on so tight that I fall on the bed with her. ,,Beca, let go of me." I say and immediately Beca let go of me and part away.

,,I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to jump on you like that. I -" I put my finger on her mouth to shut her up.

,,Becs, it's okay. There's nothing to be afraid of." The lightning flashes again and Beca's face cringe. ,,Come here." I open my arms again and she gladly lay into my arms and dug her head into my neck, while sobbing. ,,Shh, it's going to be okay. I'm not letting you go. I'm not let anything or anybody hurt you. Shh, I'm here."

,,Please stay with me, I'm afraid."

,,I'm going nowhere." Beca grabs my hand and look me in the eyes.

,,Promise?" My heart skips a beat. I hate to see her like this and I'm doing what I can to comfort her. Holding her seems right.

,,I promise. Now close your eyes and try to sleep." Beca lies back the way she was and held me really close.

,,I love you, Chlo." I hear her say, while her breathing is slowing down. The butterflies in my stomach goes crazy. Beca tells me she loves me!

,,I love you too, Becs." I admit and kiss her forehead. After a view minutes Beca is in a deep sleep and I'm smiling like crazy.

.End of flashback.

O, I wish I could hold her like that again. Just to hold her in my arms and comfort her. Back then I didn't know what to do but just holding her while she was afraid, but now I know thanks to Jeremy.

,,Whenever you feel sad or afraid, I'll be there for you. I promise." I say to Beca and kiss her lips slowly, while the tears falling from my eyes. O Becs, please wake up soon. I can't live without you!