A new beginning

.3.

The next morning when I wake up, I don't want to get up. I'm just too tired, because last night I couldn't sleep at all. Chloe is running through my mind, her beautiful ocean blue eyes, her smile... Beca, stop it! The last time I checked you where straight! I can't be gay right? Chloe is just being nice. And there I go again, I think of her and a big smile appears on my face. This is the first time that I have someone on my mind. What is happening to me?

,,So, are you ready?"

,,Ready for what?" I give my roommate a look. O, wait I didn't tell you. Amy is my roommate and she's actually really nice. Maybe, just maybe this could be my year. This can be the best school experience I ever had. Amy talk to me and don't laugh at me, so that's a good thing right? I still have to be careful, you never know and I don't have to judge.

,,The activity fair, silly." Amy grab my blanket and pull it away from my body. The cold air rush over my body. I'm not naked, but I were shorts and shirt.

,,Amy!" I yell and put the blanket back over my body. I hate my body, so I try to hide it all time. Especially for others.

,,Don't be ashamed, Beca. You are beautiful." I feel a slight blush comes to my cheeks. I love compliments, in the last six years I didn't get any so my eyes are tearing up right now. ,,Hé, what wrong?" Of course! Amy must have noticed my teary eyes. I shrug my shoulders.

,,I never get compliments, so these tears are just happy tears."

,,Why don't you ever get compliments? Not even from your parents?" When I think about my mom, I just start crying. Amy is shocked and hold me. ,,I don't want to make you upset."

,,It's okay." I wipe the tears from my cheeks. ,,My mother past away two months ago."

,,I'm sorry Beca, I didn't knew that."

,,I know you didn't. I don't want to talk about it."

,,Well, if you need me, I'm right here for you."

,,You want to be my friend?"

,,Why so surprised? You seem nice, so I think we're going to be best friends."

,,At my last school they didn't even want to talk to me or sit next to me in class." I notice that I get more and more open to her. ,,I wasn't that popular, in fact I was nothing and they loved to bully me, so..."

,,Those idiots!" Amy yell and I back down a little. Her voice is really loud. She's obviously angry. ,,They didn't have any right to bully you. Beca, you are sweet and beautiful. They were just jealous of you."

,,You think?"

,,Yeah, of course. They wanted to be you, they were so insecure about themselves that they wanted someone to forget about their insecurities. Did you... um... have you..."

,,Tried to kill myself?" I ask her and she nods. ,,Yes and I almost succeeded."

,,What made you stop." I swallow a little bit. ,,You don't have to say it to me, I'm glad that you are talking to me and that you are able to talk, but I don't have to know it if you're not ready to tell me."

,,Thank you, I don't want to talk about it actually. Maybe some other time."

,,That's a deal!" Amy puts out her pink. I give her a weird look. ,,Pinky promise. Never heard of that?" I shake my head. ,,Well, if you make a promise you give each other your pink and than make a promise to each other." I shrug my shoulders and link my pink to hers. ,,Good, are you ready to go to the activity fair now? I really want to see it."

,,Sure, but that's tomorrow. What about we go grab something to eat this afternoon?" I say and she jumps up and down for a while, while she agree. She's crazy! I start laughing. She's not that bad, maybe I can be friends with her, maybe I can trust again. Maybe this is the year I've been waiting for!

That afternoon Amy, Jesse and I are on the spot we were yesterday too. Jesse talk about movies. I don't care about movies, because they are always predictable.

,,Beca, we are going to our friends over there." Amy points towards two girls. ,,We are right back." I just nod and sigh. Just when I thought that Amy and Jesse can be my friends, they leave me just like everybody else. What am I suppose to do until they come back? I put my earplug out of my bag and play some music from my iPod. I love music, maybe I sign myself to music at the activity fair, but I'm not sure. I just look forward without any expression on my face. I love it at this university, don't get me wrong, but I like to have a friend. Maybe I'm overreacting. It's not that Amy and Jesse leave me here alone and never look back to me. Amy is looking all the time, just to make sure I'm okay. She's sweet. Then suddenly I feel a hand on my right shoulder and I jump up.

,,Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." Her sweet voice fill my ears. It's Chloe. I stop my iPod and put it back in my bag.

,,Don't sweat about it."

,,Do you mind?" She points towards the grass and I shake my head. She's going to sit next to me? O MY GOD! Am I dreaming? Secretly I pinch myself, but I regret it immediately. The pain goes through my whole body. I'm not dreaming. The beautiful and sweet Chloe Beale is willing to sit next to me. She smiles at me and pat the space next to her. I nod and sit next to her, but don't look at her. The grass is way more interesting right now. What the hell I'm a doing? Why am I so nervous around her? What's wrong with me? It's like Chloe have cursed me. ,,You are early around here, Beca." She say and the time stops. Did she just call me Beca? Does she knows my name? The way her voice say my name is a second point. It gives me goosebumps and I never had that before.

,,You know my name?" I til my head, shocked that someone as popular as Chloe will know my name.

,,Yeah, you are in my class, remember?" She smiles.

,,Still, I'm surprised you knew." I give her a small smile.

,,Oh yeah? How come?" Is this really happening? Is the most gorgeous girl from this school actually talking to me? I'm nobody. I'm weird and ugly, why would she talk to me?

,,Well I mean, you're captain of the Bella's. Everyone knows who Chloe Beale is, and I'm just... no one important." I shrug, a weak smile curling the corners of my lips.

,,That's not true." She doesn't agree on that part? What is she thinking of me than? Everyone else thinks I'm weird? I've been bullied for six years, just because I was myself and now she doesn't agree on everything they've said to me? ,,I think you can do a lot of important things, because you have a lot of good idea's." Chloe give me a light laugh and my heart jumps. She's perfect. Too perfect for me. Just look at her! She's the most beautiful girl I've ever have seen, she's nice, she makes me laugh, she always knows what to say, her eyes are heaven, her smile is gorgeous and... wow there! What is wrong with me? I'm thinking about her if I'm in love with her. O my god, am I? It is strange, really, as I never would've guessed that the captain of the Bella's – the person everyone fawned over, admire, and wished they were more like – will ever even give me so much as the time of day. Yet Chloe is completely different from the stereotypical girl which only intrigued me more, as I'm dreadfully begin to realize my feelings are more than a simple interest in the other girl. Holy shit! What am I thinking? Do I really think I'm in love with her? ,,Hey, I have to go to rehearsals, but how about I give you my number and we can catch up some time? What about coffee... this Saturday if you're not busy?" Chloe smiles warmly at me. Is she serious right now? She want to give me her number and she wants to grab a cup of coffee? That's practically a date right? Her eyes meet mine and I see her wait for me to answer. Oh right, I still need to answer. Suddenly I feel nervous as hell. What is happening to me?

,,Right, yeah, of course. Coffee sounds good – great – I'll see you then." I reply hastily.

,,Don't be afraid to text me before then, though, I promise I don't bite." Chloe chuckle softly.

,,I will, I'll be sure to text you before Saturday too." I grin coyly at her.

,,I'm looking forward to it, Beca." Chloe hum as she stand up, squeeze my hand a little, turn on her heel and give me a wave before walking away from me. Okay, what the hell did just happened?