A new beginning

.32.

The next morning I feel like crap. Where am I? I look around and startle. This is Tom's room! Why am I in here? I try to get up, but I can't because an arm is holding me back. I rub my eyes and look who's lying next to me. Tom? Wait a minute! It wasn't a dream? Tom and I had sex last night? I tilt up the blanket, but immediately put it down again. We had sex last night! Did we do it with or without protection? Was I drunk? No, I wasn't drunk otherwise I can't remember anything. I remember kissing him, I remember holding him, moan into his mouth... O my! I remember everything. I only needed a distraction, my head overflowed with all kinds of thoughts. I needed affection, someone who could be there for me... Tom is a familiar and safe haven for me. I could not think clearly and was guided by my feelings and not through my mind. Of course, I also had some drinks, but I should've guided me through my emotions. I'm in love with Beca, not Tom. Who knows what happens next! My eyes widen by the realization of the situation. What if I am pregnant from him? We didn't use any protection!

,,Tom?" I stir him and his eyes shot open.

,,Hello beautiful." He say and try to kiss me, but I pull away from him.

,,Did we used protection last night?"

,,So you still remember?"

,,Yes, I wasn't drunk. I just needed some distraction from everything that's going on in my life. Beca's situation does not improved and I couldn't take it anymore. I'm an emotional wreck right now, I don't think straight."

,,I thought you were awesome last night. The way you screamed my name..."

,,O no!" I yell when realization hit me again. ,,I cheated on Beca!"

,,Actually, you didn't cheat because Beca and you have no relationship."

,,That doesn't matter! I love Beca and now I lie here in bed with you while I must be with her!"

,,Hé, you started everything last night. Don't blame me!"

,,Okay, what are we going to do now?"

,,Nothing, it was just sex Chloe. We both enjoyed it, but there's nothing more. You are in love with Beca, not me."

,,But what if I am pregnant from you?"

,,You aren't."

,,Tom, please be reasonable! We had sex without protection, at least I need to do a pregnancy test. I don't want to be pregnant too, but we need to think about life if I am pregnant."

,,I don't want a child, so if you are pregnant you are on your own."

,,So it was only the sex huh? You don't love me at all?"

,,I love you, but I don't want a child. Clear as water, now good luck with the test and I hear from you." Right now I don't know what to say. I'm mad and sad at the same time. Mad because of the way he talk about us. If I'm pregnant, Tom's is the father and I'm not the person who let a child grow up without his or her father. And I'm sad because of the fact that I cheated on Beca even if we are in no relationship. I want to be with Beca, not Tom or any other guy who's trying to get into my pants. I need to get away from him, from his house, from his bed and everything of his. I need to go back to the one I want to be with; Beca. I grab my clothes and start changing. I hate myself for being weak. It's a hard time now she's in a coma, but I shouldn't had sex with Tom! Beca will hate me forever. I run out of the house and stop out of sight to catch my breath and to stop my tears. I need somebody! I slide down and sit on the sidewalk. I put my hands in front of my face and start crying. I cheated on Beca with my ex-boyfriend, how stupid is that?! I startle a little when my phone starts ringing. It's Aubrey.

Well hello you, where were you last night? I wanted to surprise you at the hospital, but you were gone.

Bree... Here I go again! Crying my eyes out.

O my god, Chlo what's wrong? Why are you crying?

Is Miley there?

Yes, do you want her?

Mhmm. It's quiet on the other side of the phone for a view minutes, until I hear Miley's voice.

Chloe, are you okay?

No! I've cheated on Beca, I'm a fool.

Wow, slow down. Where are you?

Around the corner of Tom's house.

Tom? Oh damn! Okay, I pick you up and than we are going to your house and talk.

No! I want to be with Beca, please bring me with you to the hospital. We can talk there.

Are you sure?

Yes, please I want to be with Beca.

Okay, I'm going to pick you up and bring you over here, but promise you will tell me everything.

I promise.

With that Miley ends the call and I start crying again. I have messed up big time!

,,So tell me what happened." Miley is here with me for one hour now and we walk around. I wanted to go with Miley's limousine, but Miley told me that walking helps to clear the mind.

,,Last night I went to a party at Tom's, it was nice to throw my attention to something different, something alive. Tom treated me with respect and I had fun. After a view drinks, I wasn't drunk, Tom was so sweet and caring about me that I kissed him."

,,You kissed him?" I nod. ,,But why are you putting yourself down for that? Apparently you needed someone, some other than one of us, but that is not bad. Tom was there for you last night and you thanked him with a kiss, so what? Chloe, I would've done the same thing."

,,I'm putting myself down, because that wasn't the only thing we did."

,,You had sex with him?" I stop walking and start to cry, full of guilt.

,,I'm so stupid!" Miley puts her arms around me and pulls me into a hug.

,,Calm down, Chloe. I know it looks bad, but it isn't." I go out of her embrace and look at her in surprise. ,,You're gonna be okay."

,,Of course it is bad! I'm probably pregnant with Tom."

,,But you don't know that. Beca isn't mad at you for this."

,,If I tell Beca that I had sex with my ex boyfriend, she's going to freak out. Beca and Tom hate each other. That she flips I can understand, but when she will hear that I'm pregnant... I lose her forever!"

,,You can't lose her if your not pregnant. Remember that you still have to do a test. Chloe, try to remain calm, before you get a panic attack. Now we just go to the pharmacy and pick up a pregnancy test. The only thing you can get yourself down for right now is the fact that you did it with Tom without any protection, I admit that was stupid." I remain quiet and follow Miley to the pharmacy store. Please, do not let me be pregnant!