A new beginning

.22.

,,Miss Mitchell, I have news about your thumb." The doctor says as he looks at my X-rays. ,,You have an extra-articular fracture."

,,So anyway broken Beca." Amy looks at me with a disgusting face. I know she doesn't like the whole idea of broken things.

,,Is that serious? Such an extra-articular fracture?"

,,Broken is broken, so it's something that needs time to heal."

,,Do I need surgery?"

,,No. This fracture is not at the joint and runs the length of one of the two bones in the thumb. Although it is painful and often takes six weeks to heal completely, for this type of bone fractures you don't usually need surgery."

,,What are you going to do now?"

,,I will immobilize your thumb. That means I'm going to put the thumb in a splint to ensure that he can not move, so that the bones remain in place during recovery."

,,How long should my thumb stuck in the splint?"

,,You will have to wear the splint somewhere between two and six weeks, and usually six rather than two."

,,Six weeks?!"

,,Miss Mitchell, your dumb is broken and it will need that time to heal completely. You have to be patient."

,,Can I fly?"

,,Yes, that not a problem."

,,Good to hear, I'm going to LA and I don't want to cancel that because of this." I put my dumb up.

,,I'm going to grab everything I need, so I can splints your dumb. I'll be right back." And with that the doctor leave the room.

,,I'm so glad you can go to LA." I look to Chloe. Is she kidding me right now?

,,Are you fucking kidding me? You just told me to back off and now you're happy to be alone with me for six months?"

,,Beca, language." Amy points her finger to me. ,,And Chloe is just worried about you and she's obviously in love with you, so shut up."

,,She's right."

,,So you do love me huh? Why didn't you told me before?"

,,What?! No, I'm not in love with you –" She look at Amy. ,,and you really think I would kiss her? I would never kiss her!" Au, that hurt. My heart just break in two pieces and when Chloe's eyes find mine, she knows what she just said. ,,O no, I didn't mean it like that Beca... it's just –"

,,Safe it, I get it. Don't worry, because I wouldn't kiss you either. Now, please go away."

,,Becs, I'm so sorry."

,,Are you deaf?! Go away, leave me alone!" Yeah, I'm hurt. It's like Chloe just admitted I am ugly! Goddammit, why do I need to have feelings for her? Why do I have to be in love with her?! She's the girl of my dreams, but she's being a jerk right now. Chloe leaves the room and Amy put her hand on my back.

,,She didn't mean it like that Becs."

,,She was pretty clear, Amy! Why are you even on her side, you suppose to be my best friend!"

,,Beca, you're being unreasonable! Chloe is in love with you, I can see that. She broke up with Tom remember?"

,,Yeah because of Aubrey, not me!"

,,You are stupid and you know I'm right. Chloe was here for you, because she loves you."

,,She doesn't love me and if you only can talk about her, than you need to leave!"

,,Fine whatever you want." Amy stands up and walk to the door.

,,No, wait. Please I'm sorry!" I yell and she stops, but doesn't turn around. I start crying. ,,I hate this feelings! I hate that I'm in love with Chloe! It sucks and I'm only making it worse. I just want to hold her, kiss her and laugh with her, but I'm only ruining our friendship!" Amy now turns around and hold me tightly.

,,Beca, you need to tell her how you feel."

,,No, she will laugh about me. She's obviously not ready for a new relationship. Her mind is still with Tom."

,,Do you still think she's in love with Aubrey?"

,,I don't know, I just know what I want and that's Chloe."

,,Then you have to work for her, make her love you, make her want to kiss you, make her want to hold you. Fight for her."

,,Maybe you're right."

,,I know I'm right."

,,Don't flatter yourself. Now I'm sorry but I have to go to Miley. Tonight we're leaving to LA and I have to know exactly what I need to pack."

,,Try to find Chloe to apologize, I know she loves you. You two are going to have a perfect time in LA."

,,Thank you Amy, and I will find Chloe. I don't want to be in LA without having fun with my best friend." Or lover to be. I really thought about Amy's words and I do want to be Chloe's girlfriend. Hopefully I won't foul myself around her anymore.

Later that day I'm at the schoolyard, waiting on Miley. We are going to talk about the LA trip. I'm excited tho, but not for Chloe. I love her, but the right words don't come out of my mouth. The way I get mad at people if they say something stupid about Chloe, is proof enough. I was jealous at Tom, because he could kiss Chloe, he could hold her, he could do whatever couples do. Hug, laugh, kiss and have sex... I want all that with Chloe, yeah even the sex part.

,,Hi Beca." Miley interrupt my mind and come sit next to me. ,,Are you excited for the trip?"

,,Yeah, I am. But there's one problem tho."

,,And what's that?" I look at my hand who play nervously with one an other. ,,Beca, you can talk to me. Just say what's up, maybe I can help?"

,,I don't think you can help." My eyes are finding hers and I see that she really cares about me, even she doesn't know me that well yet. ,,I love her." Before I've even noticing, the words that I kept for so long are coming out.

,,Who do you love?"

,,Chloe, but I know it's going to be nothing. She does not love me, but Tom."

,,Difficult situation, are you sure she's with Tom?"

,,No, she's not in a relationship with him."

,,Why do you say that she loves Tom? They broke up right?" I nod. ,,So Chloe doesn't love Tom?"

,,I do not know anymore! She said she liked someone else, a really good friend."

,,And you don't think that's you?"

,,Aubrey is her best friend, so she's the closest person around Chloe..."

,,Beca, Aubrey is in a relationship with Stacie."

,,How do you know?"

,,I have eyes, I'm not blind. You need to know what Chloe feels about you and I think that it's good that you two are going to be alone in LA, because now you two can figure out your feelings."

,,Has Chloe talked to you about her feelings?"

,,She has, but I promised to keep it private. Just get yourself together and go after the one you love. I'll see you tomorrow, bye Beca." And with that Miley leaves and my head is pounding. Aubrey and Stacie are together, so Chloe is single? Maybe Miley is right, maybe I need to fight for her. The only thing I know for sure is that I want Chloe with all my heart and that I really do love her. But is love going to be enough?