*In process of editing*
Megan's POV
I woke up with a shooting pain in my stomach.
"Fuck" I said as I tried to sit up.
As soon as Grayson heard me, he practically jumped up.
I fell backwards and curled up in a ball. I lifted up my top, and saw that one of my stitches had come undone.
"Shit! Grayson one of my stitches have come undone" I said as I looked at the blood on my hands.
"Megan what do I do-"
I blacked out.
...
I woke up to the sound of beeping. I opened my eyes to see a very worried looking Grayson sat in a chair next to me. His hand was interlocked with mine. I was in a hospital bed.
"Oh my god, Megan you scared the shit out of me" Grayson said as he rested his head on the bed.
"What happened?" I asked as I rubbed my eyes.
"The doctor said that you blacked out because of how much pain you were in. They stitched you back up and said that you will be fine, You just gotta rest." Grayson said with a slight smile.
"How long until I'm back to normal?" I asked.
"Well, the doctor said if you rest completely, then a minimum of 3 weeks" He said as he squeezed my hand.
"How wonderful" I said sarcastically.
Grayson just chuckled at me.
"Hey, I'm gonna need you to eat something for me." Grayson said.
I just looked at him. I really wasn't in the mood to eat anything.
"I know how you get when you don't eat" He added.
I just groaned as he put a plate of food in front of me.
"If I throw this all up again, then I'm blaming you" I said as I let out a little chuckle.
Grayson just sat there and smiled brightly at me. Seeing me chuckle must have made him feel happy. I don't know how I did it, it just came naturally. Usually, any type of emotion I show would be forced.
I looked down at the food in front of me. Hospital food.
"Grayson, this doesn't really look that good" I said as I pushed it away from me.
"How did I know you'd say that" He said as he chuckled. He then pulled out a McDonald's from his backpack.
"Thought I would get prepared whilst you were in surgery" He said.
He placed the food in front of me and put the hospital food aside.
I just laughed lightly and ate the food.
Luckily, I didn't throw up this time. I ate some of the food, but Grayson ended up eating most of it.
Me and Grayson spent most of the day just talking, by now it was dark. He told me about his childhood, about his family. It was so nice to hear about the wonderful things that he has done with the people that he loves.
I can't help but wish that I could say the same about me. Lets just face it, I'm jealous. I'm jealous of the amazing people that made Grayson who he is. I'm jealous that he has a perfect family that loves him more than anything.
If I ever have my own family, I want it to be like Grayson's. I want my children to be able to describe their childhood exactly the way Grayson did.
"Grayson, how do you see yourself in the future?" I asked randomly.
"I see myself with a beautiful wife that I love with all my heart. I see myself with children that I love more than anything. I see myself living life to fullest, surrounded by the people that I love the most." He said as he stared into my eyes.
He then held my hands in his.
"But most importantly Megan, I see you. I see you in my future" He said.
I was speechless.
Grayson wants a future with me?
For a second I had a smile on my face, but then it faded.
I'm no good for him.
I ruin everything I touch.
My face turned cold as I let go of Grayson's hands. I breathed in and let out a shaky breath.
I pushed myself backwards and lead down. I faced away from Grayson.
He just stood up and walked over to the light switch, turning it off.
He came back and pulled the covers over my body.
"Goodnight" He said as he kissed my forehead. He then sat back down in the chair.
Just like the night before, I could see the pain in his eyes. He just sat there, looking at me. His stare was harsh but loving. I could see that it was killing him that I didn't say anything about him. If I had, it would have been a lie. I don't see myself in the future. I don't see myself having one. I feel like I'm already gone, and I will never be able to come back.
I closed my eyes. I could no longer look at the heartbroken boy that was sat before me. It hurt me, knowing that I hurt him.
After a while, I couldn't deal with it any longer. I couldn't deal with the fact that I was lying to him. Lying to myself.
I have feelings for Grayson, strong ones. Feelings that I can't keep pushing away. I sat up and pushed the covers off me.
"What's wrong?" Grayson asked worried as he stood up.
He helped me to my feet.
As soon as I was stood up, I wrapped my arms around his neck and brought him in close.
"I can't keep lying to you Grayson. I can't keep lying to myself" I said.
"Wha-"
I cut him off by kissing him softly.
Grayson's hands made their way to my waist. I kissed Grayson passionately, as I ran my fingers through his hair. His arms pulled my waist closer to his, causing me to squeal from the contact on my stitches.
My head fell onto Grayson's shoulder as I tried to hide the pain.
Grayson just started walking backwards with me until we had reached the bed. He helped me to sit down on the bed. He then lifted my chin up so that my eyes were level with his.
"You should get some rest" Grayson said as he helped me to lay backwards.
He had pulled the covers over me and kissed my head like he usually does. He then kissed my lips softly and sat down on the chair. This time, he kept his fingers interlocked with mine as he traced circles with his thumb on the back of my hand.
I have fallen for Grayson Dolan.
I just can't fully admit it to him, or myself.
