*In process of editing*
Megan's POV
"Get up lazy ass" I said as I jumped on top of Grayson. Grayson and I were in our own hotel room, Ethan in the one next to us.
I don't really remember much from last night. The only thing I do remember is Grayson carrying me out of the van. I must have fallen asleep on the way here.
"I missed you so much" Grayson said as he finally opened his eyes.
"Why did you do it?" I asked, completely ignoring what he had just said.
My question left him with a puzzled look spread across his face.
"Do what?" he asked confused.
"Grayson, don't play dumb with me. Why did you fucking go with them" I said angrily.
"Megan, I wasn't just going to watch them take Joseph. There were too many of them, me and Ethan wouldn't have been able to fight them off. I knew that by distracting them, Ethan and Joseph would get away, and I was right." He said as he stared into my eyes and cupped my face.
I just glared at him.
"Megan, I did what you would have done. I know for a fact that you would have done the same for Joseph, and you can't deny that." He said as he brought his face closer to mine, sitting up slightly.
He was right. I would have done that.
"Grayson, this isn't your fight. Please. I don't want to lose you. I know it may not seem like it, but you don't realise how fucking much you mean to me" I said, finally admitting my feelings for him.
He didn't say anything, he just pulled me in closer. He brought his lips to my ear, his hot breath sending goosebumps down my spine.
"You don't even realise how long and how much I have wanted you to say that" He said with a bright smile as he leant his forehead against mine.
I just smiled back. Our teeth clashing, as our lips were brushing. I felt a spark through my hole body as his hands made their way to my thighs, pulling me on top of him.
He kissed me slowly, then dramatically flipped us over and lead in between my legs, causing me to erupt in laughter.
He then kissed me passionately, as his hands roamed over every inch of my body, removing my sweatshirt. My hands traced over his abs as I pulled at his shirt, signalling him to take it off.
Grayson's hands made their way to the waistband of my jeans, as he tugged at them. I swiftly flipped us over again and brought my lips to his neck, leaving marks all over him.
I left kisses up from his shoulder and along his jawline, until I had kissed every inch of his neck. I brought my lips to his ear as I whispered things, things that drove him crazy.
"You need to stop teasing me, baby girl" Grayson breathed out uncomfortably. I then noticed his growing little friend.
"And you need to learn to control yourself, pretty boy" I said as I sat up and jumped away from him, running away.
He chased after me and spun me around in circles as his arms were wrapped around mine.
I was laughing hysterically, and so was Grayson. He finally stopped spinning and wrapped my legs around his waist as he pushed me up against the wall.
His lips connected with my neck as his hands gripped my thighs, holding me up. My face then fell.
What was I doing?
How am I feeling like this?
It's not right.
Joseph is out there, probably scared to death. But here I am, fooling around with Grayson.
It's not right.
"Grayson what are we going to do?" I asked him, causing him to mumble a "what?" against my neck.
"Joseph " I croaked out.
He stopped kissing my neck and lifted his head up so his eyes were in line with mine.
My smile had completely disappeared. Now, the only emotion that controlled my face was guilt.
"Well?" I choked out as Grayson still hadn't answered me.
He still didn't answer. He just took me over to the bed and placed me on it.
"Stay here." He said as he squeezed my thigh assuringly. He then walked out of the hotel room.
What the fuck was he doing?
He returned about a minute later with Ethan, and a few main gang members. He could have at least warned me that he was bringing people into the room, I was in one of Grayson's large shirts with my fucking bra and underwear!
When Grayson realised this, he immediately walked over to me and sat in front of me, hiding my body behind him. He still hadn't bothered to put his shirt back on, and the marks I had left on him were clearly visible.
"We are going back tonight." He said after everyone had settled.
"Me and Megan will get Joseph. I know where he will be" He added.
He looked over his shoulder at me, I just nodded.
He then told the gang where to wait for us, and what to do if anything goes wrong. It sounded as if he was just making up a plan as he went along, but it actually turned out pretty decent.
After awhile, Grayson kicked everyone out of our hotel room. He then ordered pizza as I sat, cuddled into the white sheets.
The food came and Grayson grabbed it and practically jumped onto the bed like a little kid, I laughed at his childish behaviour as he pulled me towards him.
I sat on Grayson's lap and ate the pizza, as the news came on.
'The 3 dead bodies found at a farm house in New Jersey have been released as murder-' I immediately turned of the TV and put my head in my hands.
Grayson just placed his hand on my thigh and rubbed circles with his thumb.
"I need a cigarette" I said as I stood up. I grabbed my jeans and put them on, I then pulled one of Grayson's hoodies over my head and put on my shoes. I made a run for the door, hoping Grayson wasn't going to follow me, but I was wrong.
He stayed hot on my tail, though he didn't say a word. I knocked on Connors door and he opened it immediately.
"Got any cigarettes?" I asked Coldly. He just handed me a pack and a lighter. I quietly thanked him and made my way outside, Grayson still following close behind.
I sat on the steps leading up to the entrance of the hotel as I lit my cigarette. Grayson sat next to me as we stared out at the view of busy cars that sped down the streets.
I wonder what it's like, to be normal. To have a normal life. To wake up and go to work. Whether that job being in an office, or a restaurant, it wouldn't matter. Nothing would matter.
I wonder what it's like to be free. To be safe. To not have to check around every fucking corner.
I wonder what it's like to love. To be loved. To be in a stable relationship with your one and only.
I wonder what it's like to have a family. A family that cares about you. A family with love. A family like Grayson's.
I then looked at Grayson. He looked lost in thought as well. How I wish I could know what he was thinking. I hope it's something good, I feel as if I've just been sending him negative thoughts, and I wish I wasn't.
Maybe if I wasn't so Cold, I could have a normal life. I could know what it feels like to wake up, and go to work. To be free and feel safe. To love someone, and have someone that loves me. To have a family that I love with all my heart.
But it all comes back to it, I'm just too fucking Cold.
