*In process of editing*
1 Month Later.
Ethan's POV
The rain poured down in this dark cemetery. A black umbrella sheltered me from the droplets of water that were plummeting to the ground.
Joseph was stood at my side, his hand clutching onto the material of my pants.
I should be at home, making a video with Grayson, or playing a video game with Joseph.
But I'm not. I'm watching as my twin brother and his girlfriend get put 6 feet under.
I blame myself.
I wasn't there when Grayson needed me the most.
I blamed everyone but myself.
I was selfish.
Their bodies were found at the edge of a cliff me and Grayson used to go to when we were younger. Megan was murdered and Grayson took his own life.
It doesn't feel real.
It doesn't feel right.
I know I'm going to have to except it sooner or later, and I will.
I don't care what anyone says, they are not gone.
I am going to live my life in their name. I will see the good and bad things that life has to offer, with Grayson by my side, Megan on his arm.
I won't take things for granted.
I won't be selfish.
I won't blame anyone for my mistakes.
A tear slipped down my face as I picked up a handful of dirt, and threw it into the hole that now holds the bodies of 2 people that I love.
"Please forgive me, Megan. The things I said, the things I did, I was being selfish. I was thinking about myself. I wasn't thinking straight. I was too caught up in wanting to be this and wanting to be that, the only thing I was thinking was to not let anyone ruin that for me. But I ruined it for myself. I ruined it when I ruined you. When I said those things that I didn't mean, when I did those things that I shouldn't have. I'm sorry.
Please forgive me, Grayson. I wasn't there when you needed me the most. I wasn't there when you were all alone, when you had nobody to comfort you when out had an attack, when you had nobody to tell you that you are loved when you felt like you weren't. I regret everything. I regret not being there, I regret the things I said, I regret the things I did. I love you Grayson. Rest up, bud. I'll see you soon. I'm sorry."
