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Grayson's POV
"Come on, let's get you back to your hotel yeah?" Jax said as he helped me to my feet. I just giggled like a little kid, as Jax dragged me down the street.
Before I knew it, I was in my hotel room. Jax had left, so I was alone. I had started to come down from my high, and the thoughts came back.
She's still gone.
I sat in the corner of the room with a pillow, just like she used to do. I leant my head back as I completely broke down. I sobbed as I pulled at my hair and hugged my knees to my chest.
I was a mess without her.
I was interrupted from my cries as someone entered the room.
It was Ethan.
He had cuts and bruises on his face from earlier where I hit him.
I couldn't even look at him, I did that.
I did that to my own twin brother.
"Please, Ethan. Leave me alone" I said through my sobs. Ethan just walked over to me and sat down as he wrapped his arm around me.
"I'm sorry Gray" He said as a tear slipped from his eye too. I immediately wrapped my arm around his body as I continued to cry.
"I-I don't know what to do Eth. I need her, I-I love her" I said to Ethan.
"I know you do, Gray. I bet she does too" He said, trying to make me feel better.
"Why did she have to leave me Ethan" I said, still sobbing.
"I don't know, bud" he said as he started to cry too.
"No. Ethan you don't get it, I can't be without her. The pain won't go away, I need her" I said as I removed my arm from around him and put my head in my hands.
Ethan just rested his hand on my back as he tapped it, signalling for me to look at him.
"Grayson, we will find her, okay? I promise." He said as I looked up at him.
"you can't promise that, Ethan" I said sounding defeated.
"She knows what she's doing, we have a one in a million chance of finding her." I added.
"Then I guess we will have to be that one chance" He said as he nodded.
The guilt had hit me like a brick.
"I-I'm so sorry, Ethan" I said as I examined the cuts on his face.
"No, I'm the one who should be sorry. I deserved it. I just wanted my brother back, the one that was always happy and hopeful, the one that was always around and always there for me" He said hurt.
"He left when she did, Ethan. I need her to be me. Without her, I'm nothing." I said honestly. Ethan just nodded and stood up, as my stomach made a horrible sound, I was starving.
"When's the last time you had something proper to eat?" Ethan asked as I stood up too.
I just shrugged my shoulders, I couldn't really remember.
"Alright, come on. Let's get Joseph and go out for something to eat" Ethan said as he pulled my arm in the direction of the door.
"Grayson!" Joseph yelled as he jumped into my arms.
"You alright, bud?" I asked as I forced a smile.
"Yeah" He said cheerfully as he released his tight grip on me.
"Where do you wanna go, Joseph?" I asked as I stood up from my crouched position.
"Mc Donald's!" He yelled excited.
Ethan chuckled at him as I forced another smile.
We left the hotel and walked to the closest Mc Donald's.
Once we got our food, I finished within minutes, I was absolutely starving.
I sat and watched as Joseph ate his burger. He looked so innocent, so calm, like Megan leaving hasn't affected him. I guess she's left so many times that he's gotten used to it, I'm just scared that this time she won't come back.
I starting thinking, maybe Jax can help me out. Tonight I am going to do his job, after i'm done, maybe Jax can help me find her. He said it can't be hard with his connections, so maybe I will find her after all.
"Whatcha thinking bout bup?" Ethan asked, breaking me from my thoughts. I just looked at him with a straight face.
"Her" I said sadly.
"Hey, don't worry, we will find her" Ethan said as he took a sip of his drink.
"We are going to look for Megan?" Joseph asked.
Hearing her name made me want to scream, I just wanted her in my arms, Is that too much to ask for?
"Uh, yeah Joseph. We are going to find her" Ethan said with a smile.
"I don't think that is a good idea" Joseph said sounding scared.
"Why not?" I asked confused.
"Well, last time Meg left, she told me that she will be back as soon as she can, or if she can. If we try and find her, she might never come back" He said sadly.
"Don't worry Joseph, I am going to find Megan no matter what, okay?" I said to him as I placed my hand on his arm reassuringly. He just nodded.
I am going to make it my goal to find Megan, even if it's the last thing I do.
The sun had started to set, I need to leave now to complete my job.
"I'm gonna head out on a walk for a bit, I'll see you at the hotel yeah?" I said to Ethan as I stood up and put on my jacket.
"Okay, see ya" Ethan said as I walked away from the table.
I made it back to the hotel to pick up the knife that Jax had given me, I had hid it under the bed so Ethan wouldn't find it.
I placed the knife securely in my pants, just like Megan had done the night we found the gang with James. I pulled my hood over my face as I looked for my bandana.
I couldn't find it, the only thing I did find was Megan's. I decided on wearing hers, I am doing this for her. I quickly made my way out of the hotel, walking to my destination.
In my mind, I was going over some scenarios of how this is gonna go down. I figured out a plan and blocked out everything around me, I needed to be fully concentrated.
I spotted the apartment complex and slowly walked over to it.
I was focused.
I was merciless.
