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Grayson's POV
Joseph had cried himself to sleep in my arms. I moved him to the bed, then made my way into the bathroom.
I stared at my reflection in the mirror. I wasn't there anymore. I wasn't looking at myself.
I'm nothing without her.
I'm nothing without her.
I'm fucking nothing without her.
I need to find her before she leaves me for good.
I walked out of the hotel room, and knocked on Reeman's door. He was the one who found Damien, he must be able to track her down.
"Reeman, she's gone. I need you to find her" I said as soon as he had opened his door. He didn't say anything, he just motioned for me to come inside.
"Grayson, I'm sorry but I can't help you" He said after we had sat down.
"What do you mean you can't fucking help me?" I said standing up, instantly becoming angry from one thing he had said.
"Megan left for a reason. She was the leader of this gang, I can't go behind her back" He said apologetically.
I just lost it.
I pushed over a table and stormed out of his room.
What the fuck!
It's not going behind her back!
It's saving her!
It's saving me...
I ran out of the hotel before I did something I would regret. I made it outside and instantly broke down. I walked around a corner, into an alleyway so I could be alone.
I slid down the side of a wall as I cried. I pulled the note that Megan had left out of my pocket and read it over and over.
It haunted me.
She loved me, so why did she leave me.
Why did she leave me.
Why did she leave me.
Why did she fucking leave me!
I threw a punch at the wall I was leaning against. I couldn't even feel the purple/blackish bruises that covered my whole fist. The pain I was feeling emotionally was a thousand times worse.
My heart hurt.
It literally hurt.
I can't do this.
Its been one day, one fucking day.
Yet it feels like it's been forever since I've seen her face.
It feels like it's been forever since I've felt her touch, her lips against mine. It feels like it's been forever since she held me in her arms, keeping me together.
Without her arms wrapped around me, I am broken. I have shattered into a million pieces, and she is the only one who can fix me, but she is gone.
She isn't here to keep me together, she isn't here to pick up my pieces. She left me.
She left me.
She fucking left me!
I threw another punch, this time with my other hand. I then leant back against the wall again, hugging my knees to my chest and rocking back and forth.
I put my head in my hands as my sobs started to stop. My emotions started to disappear. They were getting lost as time went on.
Before I knew it, my cries had stopped. I was silent, staring off into space.
That's when someone entered the alleyway. It was a man. He was dressed in all black, and he had a hood covering his face.
He took one look at me and laughed.
"Need some good shit?" He asked me. What?
I just looked at him with a confused expression, he then sat down next to me. He put his hand into his pocket and pulled out a little packet, holding a small pill.
Oh.
"You're looking a bit tense, here" He said as he handed it to me. I looked at him, his eyes were red and his pupils were large. He had a smile on his face and nodded for me to take the pill.
I looked at it for a second.
Maybe it will help me forget, just for a little.
"It's good, helps me forget" He said as he leant his head against the wall and smiled up at the sky.
I mean, it won't hurt me, this man seems perfectly fine. I took the pill out of the packet and swallowed it. I then leant my head against the wall and waited. Waited for something to happen.
"What's you're name, son?" The man asked me.
"Grayson" I said as my fingers started to tingle. I lifted my hands up and looked at them as I wiggled my fingers.
I started to forget.
My mind was taken over as my eyesight went fuzzy. I just smiled as I closed my eyes and leant my head against the wall again.
"You're right, it does" I said as I relaxed my body.
I felt so calm. My mind became blank and I felt... happy?
"Hey, you wanna do something for me?" The man asked.
"Sure" I said excited.
"Hold onto these for a bit" He said as he reached into his pocket and handed me little packets. Each packet contained a different kind of pill.
I took them and stuffed them in my jacket as I looked up at the sky and smiled. I felt so good.
"That's a good lad" He said as he tapped my shoulder. I just smiled from ear to ear.
"Meet me here tomorrow, yeah?" he said as he stood up. I just nodded my head as I closed my eyes.
The man grabbed my arm and pulled me to my feet.
"Go home, yeah?" He said as he looked around, seeing if anyone was watching us.
I just nodded my head and started making my way back to the hotel.
I ran my fingers over the walls as I passed them, looking up at the sky.
It looked so beautiful. She clouds swirled into the bright blue colour, it looked like an ocean. The sound of the trees rustling in the wind replayed in my mind, even after I was halfway up to Ethan's hotel room.
I could still hear the birds that had been chirping as I opened the hotel room door and walked in.
"Gray!" Ethan yelled as he saw me.
I just smiled brightly at him and walked over to the bed, closing my eyes as I laid down.
It felt so good, the soft sheets and the cloud like mattress that my body sunk into. I looked around the room and smiled as my eyes drooped.
"Grayson!?" Ethan yelled worried.
I just pulled my finger up to my lips and let out a quiet "Shhhhhhh" as I giggled.
"Grayson what did you do!" He yelled as he grabbed my face and made me look at him. I opened my eyes and he gasped.
Ethan started pacing back and forth around the hotel room. I don't know why.
I just closed my eyes. My mind became vacant as I drifted into a deep sleep.
