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Megan's POV
Grayson led us through the bushes and away from the house. His one hand was clasped with mine, and his other supported Josephs body as he carried him.
We had been walking for about 20 minutes, and Joseph had fallen asleep on Grayson.
We stopped at a motel and checked into a room. Grayson tucked Joseph into the bed and walked over to me, I was stood by the window, staring out at a street light.
I have to leave.
I've caused too much pain.
They will be safe if I go, all of them.
Grayson.
Joseph.
Ethan.
The gang.
I have to do it.
I am going to sneak out in a couple hours, after Grayson has gone to sleep. I will kill Shawn. Then I will run.
It's the only way I can stop the pain. It's the only way.
Grayson wrapped his arms around me and brought my body close to his. I turned in his arms and wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him in close.
I stared into his eyes as my hand traced over his face, admiring his features.
I rested my head on his shoulder and just held him tightly. It's for the best. I have to go.
A tear fell from my eye and Grayson wiped it away. I looked up and Grayson looked into my eyes, capturing me in his gaze.
He kissed me slowly with so much emotion. I don't want to go. I don't want to leave him.
I.. I I love him.
No.
I can't.
All I do is cause him pain.
I'm no good for him.
I have to leave before it gets too hard.
I interlocked my hands with Grayson's and walked over to the bed. I got into the bed and Grayson did too. I faced away from him, I couldn't bare to look at his perfect face any longer.
He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me backwards, so that our bodies were firmly pressed against each other. He nuzzled his face into my hair and interlocked our hands that were draped over my body.
I couldn't sleep.
I thought Grayson had gone to sleep, but when he spoke I knew he hadn't.
"I love you, Megan" He whispered into my hair. A tear slipped out of my eye. If only he Knew I loved him too.
After about an hour, I could hear Grayson's light snores in my ear.
I slowly removed his arm from around me, being careful to not wake him up.
I successfully made it out of his grip without waking him, I then stood at the end of the bed, looking at my 2 boys.
The tears started to flow and I couldn't stop them even if I tried.
"I have to do this" I whispered to myself as I walked over to a table.
Sitting on it was a piece of paper and a pen. If this was goodbye, I needed Grayson to know how I really felt.
I wiped away my tears and picked up the pen.
I Love you too, pretty boy
- M
I put the pen down and walked over to Grayson and kissed his forehead. I then walked over to Joseph and kissed his forehead as well. I placed a note next to him that read-
I Love you Joseph. Stay with Grayson okay? Be good.
-M
I then quickly made my way out of the room before it was too hard. I ran out of the motel, in the direction of Shawn's house.
I ran through the bushes, my pace strong and my heart thumping. The tears had gone, I had none left. The only thing left on my mind was making sure that the boys will be safe.
I made it to the house, and climbed the tree to the second floor balcony. I opened the door to the balcony, and there he was.
Shawn was led on a king sized bed, asleep. This was it. I reached under his bed, hoping to find some sort of weapon, and I found just that.
I pulled out a knife and held it to Shawn's throat. I looked away as I pushed the knife down and slid it across his skin.
It was done.
I had killed him.
I walked back over to the door and climbed back down the tree. Nobody saw me enter, and nobody saw me leave.
This was it.
It was time to go.
I slowly walked away from the house, down the street.
There was no turning back.
I was gone.
Nobody could stop me.
I have to do this.
I walked and walked.
Going in any direction, it didn't matter.
That was the story of how I became so Cold.
That was the story of how I disappeared of the face of the earth. That was the story of my life.
I wasn't sure of what I was doing.
I didn't know what I was going to do, or where I was going.
There was only one thing that I was sure of,
I, Megan Parr, will always be Cold.
