In Your Dreams

Part 28

*Bethany's POV*

"What is your real reason?! are you even homesick?" Shennika said looking at me with her arms folded.

"I am homesick" I didn't how to answer her question, I couldn't tell her, I can't! there's too much- it's too much of a risk!

"Bethany!" she shouted. I breathed hard feeling myself burning up as I forced myself to remain quiet. I started shaking, fearing what would happen if she broke it out of me. Kelli she- no, no I can't!

 Instead I just swallowed and kneelt down to sweep the broken glass off the floor, my hands were shaking so much making it the more harder to steadily sweep. I felt the hot stare from Shennika on my back, I bet she hates me right now but I rather it be this then what Kelli threatened.

 I heard her gasp taking in a breath. She kneelt down beside me ruffling the pictures in her hands "answer me Beth, did you cut these yourself?" she said in almost a whisper.

Hot tears pricked at my eyes as my stomach ached with more guilt. My shaky hand moved and cut against the glass. Again she gasped "Bethany what are you do---" I stood up looking at her with watery eyes holding my cut hand, "look at it! you see this!" I shouted at her startled face.

"Blood?" she said quietly looking at the red droplets on the floor then slowly up at me in confusion. I breathed deeply tightening my grip and bit my lip because of the sharp pain my cut gave. "Blood, blood! that's all you'll be seeing!"

She took a step closer but I took a step back cursing silently as tears dripped from my eyes like the blood did from my palm. "I don't get what you mean?" she said looking at me with soft eyes as I backed away from her with every step she took.

She stopped "these aren't yours are they?" she was referring to the photos and letter.

I looked away from her glance and grimaced in pain as a few more drips of blood dripped. From the corner of my eye I saw her frown, "please just- you can tell me" she said quietly.

I managed to look at her "I can't, please- my silence is to protect you" my voice sounded raspy. She shook her head at me, "If this is to protect me then please don't! you're bleeding! Beth I hardly recognise you, I've never seen you like this."

More tears dripped down my face as I span on my heels and ran out of the room and lock myself into the bathroom. Leaning against the door I slid down slowly and hugged my knees. She banged at the door "Bethany! please let me in, what's wrong?!"

I hugged my knees tighter burying my face sitting on the bathroom floor. I'm protecting you...please understand...